" DID THAT MAN EVER COME IN HERE "?

NOT KNOWING WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT, I ASKED HIM "WHAT MAN"? THEN MIKE SAID "THE MAN WHO CAME OVER HERE"!  MIKE ASKED ME YESTERDAY IF I EVER MET HIS BROTHER.  I'M THE ONE WHO FOUND HIS BROTHER JACK AFTER THEY HAD NOT BEEN IN TOUCH FOR MANY YEARS. HE OFTEN WILL ASK "HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE IN THE HOUSE"?  ALSO, "IS ANY ONE COMING FOR ME TODAY"? IF I CAN UNDERSTAND HIM-I STILL CAN'T UNDERSTAND HIM SO MUCH OF THE TIME!!  HE WILL START TO SAY SOMETHING, MAKE SOME MOTIONS WITH HIS HANDS, AND THEN JUST GO QUIET.  HE SAT OUTSIDE FOR QUITE A WHILE YESTERDAY, AND THEN WHEN OUR DAUGHTER FONDA STOPPED BY, SHE SAT ON THE BACK PORCH WITH HIM.  I THINK HE JUST ENJOYS BEING OUTSIDE-EVEN IF HE CAN NO LONGER PULL HIS WEEDS OR RAKE HIS LEAVES.  HE WAS IN MUCH PAIN LAST NIGHT, AS I HEARD HIS MOAN SO LOUD IT WOKE ME UP.  MY HEART BREAKS EACH TIME I SEE HIM WINCE IN PAIN-THIS IS A PAINFUL JOURNEY FOR ANYONE WHO IS ON IT NOW, OR HAS ALREADY BEEN ON IT. I ALMOST WISH MIKE WOULD HAVE GONE LIKE HIS FATHER AND BROTHER BEFORE HIM, WITH A HEART ATTACH.  IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A SHOCK OF COURSE, BUT HE WOULD NOT HAVE TO SUFFER DAY IN AND DAY OUT FOR WHO KNOWS HOW MUCH LONGER.  I HAVE INCREASED HIS MORPHINE, BUT WHEN HIS HOSPICE NURSE COMES TODAY, I WILL ASK HER WHAT ELSE WE CAN DO FOR HIS PAIN..  I DID SLEEP A LITTLE BETTER LAST NIGHT-GOT UP AROUND 4:30AM, THEN WENT BACK TO BED AFTER A BIT, AND  HAVE BEEN UP AGAIN FOR A WHILE.  MIKE IS STILL RESTING, AND PART OF ME HOPE HE STAYS IN BED ASLEEP-IT IS SUCH AN EFFORT FOR HIM TO WALK EVEN TO THE BATH ROOM AND FOR SOME REASON NOW HE ONLY WANTS TO USE THE CANE-NOT THE WALKER.  I CONTINUE TO BE SO PROUD OF HIM FOR HIS EFFORT TO DO WHAT HE CAN, AND NOT COMPLAIN.  I HAVE TO ASK HIM IF HE IS IN PAIN WHEN HE IS AWAKE, AND ONLY THEN HE WILL NOD HIS HEAD OR SAY YES.  I HOPE YOU WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS, AS THAT IS WHAT IS CARRYING ME THROUGH THIS TUNNEL OF SADNESS.  PLEASE SHOW LOVE TO ONE ANOTHER-IT IS GOD'S WAY, JUST ME