I'VE BEEN ABLE TO CALL OLD FRIENDS-FINALLY

ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS FOR ME HAS BEEN TO CALL ONES THAT ARE NO LONGER CLOSE BY.  THEY HEARD OF MIKE'S PASSING, AND HAVE BEEN TRYING TO CALL ME EVER SINCE.  I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO RETURN THOSE CALLS BECAUSE I KNOW THEY WILL WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY IT WAS SO FAST, AND I CRY EVERY TIME THE SUBJECT GETS TO MIKE.  I DID MAKE A CALL AND I DID CRY, BUT I WAS HAPPY THAT I WAS ABLE TO TALK WITH AN OLE FRIEND AND THE CALL ENDED VERY NICELY.  I FELT LIKE I HAD MADE ANOTHER HUGE STEP TOWARDS MY RECOVERY.  I REALLY DO BELIEVE OUR SURVIVING OUR GRIEF IS DONE IN STEPS OR STAGES.  THERE ARE STILL THINGS I FEEL I CAN NOT BROACH, BUT IN TIME, I KNOW I WILL.  HOW MUCH TIME??  THAT I DON'T KNOW, BUT WHEN I AM READY, I WILL KNOW IT.  I HUNTED ALL DAY (ACTUALLY FOR SEVERAL DAYS) FOR MY BLACK PASHMINA.  I USE TO USE IT TO COVER MIKE'S STOMA WHEN HE SAT DOWN AT THE MEETINGS.  HIS STOMA BAG COULD NOT BE HIDDEN IN HIS SUIT PANTS, SO I DID MY BEST TO KEEP IT COVERED AT THE MEETING. IT DID NOT SHOW WHEN HE STOOD TO SING THE SONGS OR HEAR THE PRAYER-ONLY WHEN WE SAT DOWN.  I AM JUST SICK THAT SOMEHOW IT HAS BEEN LOST.  I HOPE I CAN STILL FIND IT SOMEWHERE IN ONE OF THE UNPACKED BOXES I HAVE.  ANY HOW, MY DOCTOR' S APPOINTMENT YESTERDAY MORNING WENT WELL-HE SCHEDULED MY COLONOSCOPY FOR JUNE THE 14th. MY SISTER VICKIE HAS ALREADY SAID SHE WILL TAKE ME THERE.  WHAT FUN!!  I ALSO HAVE AN APPOINTMENT ON NEXT TUES. TO GO TO A NEW DENTIST.  I BOUGHT A VERY INEXPENSIVE DENTAL PLAN THAT IS SUPPOSE TO TAKE AFFECT RIGHT AWAY.  IT IS ALSO SUPPOSE TO SAVE ME AT LEAST 50% ON ALL MY CAPS & CROWNS AND EVEN MORE ON OTHER STUFF.  WE SHALL SEE-I SURE HOPE IT DOES, AS ALL MY TEETH NEED HELP!!  WELL I SHOULD GO AND GET DRESSED NOW, AND EAT A LITTLE SOMETHING FOR BREAKFAST.  HOPE YOUR DAY IS FULL OF HAPPY SURPRISES-TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME