Wednesday, May 30, 2012

TOTALLY WASTED DAY!!

YESTERDAY I WAS A TOTAL COACH POTATO!!  I NEVER EVEN GOT OUT OF MY P.J.'S ALL DAY.  I WAS IN ONE OF THOSE  SOMBER MOODS, AND EVEN CALLS OF EACH OF MY THREE CHILDREN, MY SON IN LAW, AND MY SISTER DID NOT HELP.  I JUST WAS GOING TO WALLOW IN SELF PITY YESTERDAY NO MATTER WHAT.  SO I DID.  NO, IT DID NOT MAKE THINGS ANY BETTER, BUT I DO FEEL MORE RESTED THIS AM.  I GUESS WHAT I AM LEARNING IS THIS "THERE IS NO EASY WAY TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS OF SOMEONE YOU HAVE LOVED FOR SO MANY YEARS".  I STAY BUSY, IN FACT TODAY IS MY MORNING WATER AEROBICS CLASS.  I KEEP UP WITH MY BIBLE READING (EXCEPT FOR YESTERDAY), AND MY STUDIES FOR THE MEETINGS.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO TO MAKE THIS HURT ANY LESS-I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT ON TIME TO HEAL MY HEART.  OF COURSE THE RESURRECTION WOULD WORK TOO, AND I WOULD MUCH PREFER THAT, BUT AGAIN-IN TIME (JEHOVAH'S-NOT MINE)..  IT'S EARLY, ONLY AROUND 7AM, BUT THE DAY ALREADY LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER RAINY DAY.  MAYBE THAT IS PLAYING A PART IN MY DEPRESSED MOOD-NOT SURE.  I WAS HOPING FOR A BRIGHT AND SUNNY DAY TODAY, BUT I GUESS THAT TOO WILL HAVE TO WAIT.  OH, WE ARE HAVING OUR FAMILY BIBLE STUDY THIS SAT. BECAUSE ON SUNDAY IS OUR C.P.R. CLASS. MY SISTER VICKIE IS GOING WITH ME, AND I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT.  JAKKI WANTS TO MAKE SURE THAT ANY ONE WHO WILL BABY SIT FOR MINKA IS CPR TRAINED-NOT A BAD IDEA HUH?? SO MUCH IS GOING ON IN JUNE THIS YEAR.  MARTHA (OUR NEIGHBOR) HAS TO GET A NEW HIP.  I WILL HAVE MY TRIGGER POINT SHOTS IN THE NECK ON THE 11TH , AND MY COLONOSCOPY ON THE 14TH.  I KNOW THERE IS SOME OTHER STUFF GOING ON AS WELL, BUT I JUST CAN'T REMEMBER OFF HAND WHAT THEY ARE.  MY SON AND HIS WIFE LAURA JUST HAD ANOTHER ANNIVERSARY-I'M SO HAPPY THAT THINGS ARE GOING WELL FOR THEM.  ONLY WISH I OR THEY WERE CLOSER.  THOSE LITTLE GIRLS OF THEIRS ARE TOO CUTE FOR WORDS.  I HEAR THAT LILLY CAN OUT RIDE MY SON ON HER LITTLE BIKE ALREADY!!  WOW, TO HAVE THAT KIND OF ENERGY AGAIN!!  WELL, I AM SIPPING MY CAFE' CON LECHE', AND PRAYING FOR A BETTER MOOD TODAY.  I'M ALREADY AHEAD OF WHERE I WAS YESTERDAY, SO I HOPE THAT IS A GOOD SIGN.  WELL, TILL TOMORROW-CHIN UP-IT'S THE ONLY WAY TO SEE THE SKY.  JUST ME

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