HERE'S MY LINK TO THE WALK TO END ALZHEIMER'S

http://act.alz.org/goto/lindahayes  PLEASE COPY AND PASTE THIS LINK TO YOUR FACE BOOK ACCOUNT OR PERSONAL PAGE OR BLOG.  I AM TRYING TO RAISE AWARENESS OF THIS TERRIBLE DISEASE AS BOTH MY SISTER'S HUSBAND AND MINE HAD IT.  I LOST MY DEAR MIKE THIS PAST APRIL AND WILL BE WALKING IN HIS MEMORY.  PLEASE JOIN ME AND MY FAMILY-IT WOULD DO SO MUCH IN  HELPING OTHER FAMILIES WHO ARE STRUGGLING WITH THIS SADNESS.  THANK YOU SO MUCH, LINDA & FAMILY (MIKE JR., FELINA BAGGETT, FONDA SIKORA,  SPOUSES, GRAND CHILDREN, AND EVEN ONE LITTLE GREAT GRAND CHILD-MINKA)!!!

DARN DOGS KEPT ME AWAKE LAST NIGHT!!

I SHOULD NOT BLAME IT ON BOTH MY DOGS, BUT PRESLEY WAS AWAKE AND WANTED TO GO OUT 3AM.  I DID NOT TAKE HIM, AS THE NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR COMPLAINED ABOUT HIS BARKING ONE OTHER TIME I LET HIM OUT SO EARLY.  HE MUST HAVE SEEN OR HEARD SOMETHING FOR HIM TO BARK THAT TIME, AS HE HARDLY EVER BARKS!!  ANY HOW I WAS UP AND AT EM BY 7AM.  MY SISTER WILL GO WITH ME TO THE GYM IN 15 MIN. SO I WILL HAVE TO MAKE THIS QUICK AND SHORT.  WE SPENT SOME TIME AT DAWN'S HOUSE YESTERDAY, (MY NIECE), AND SHE REALLY DID A GREAT JOB WITH PUTTING THE INFORMATION AND THE LINK FOR THE "END ALZHEIMER'S WALK 2012" ON MY FACE BOOK AS WELL AS MY BLOG.  THE BLOG IS HARD TO FIND BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO GO INTO MY PERSONAL INFO. WHERE THE PICTURE OF MIKE AND I ARE, READ ALL THE WAY TO THE END, AND THEN YOU WILL SEE TO CLICK TO LINK ON MY WISH LIST WHICH WILL TAKE YOU RIGHT TO MY ALZHERMER'S WALL & SUPPORT PAGE.  ANY ONE WHO WANTS TO SIGN UP FOR THE WALK CAN DO SO THERE OR ON MY FACEBOOK PAGE NOW, SO I GUESS I AM OPEN FOR SUPPORTERS AND DONTATIONS!!!  THIS MORNING I HAVE A PCP APPOINTMENT, SO THAT IS WHY WE ARE GOING SO EARLY TO THE GYM.  I HOPE THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BACK BEFORE I MAKE THAT LONG TRIP TO CA.  IT HAS BEEN KILLING ME, CAN'T EVEN TURN OVER IN BED WITH OUT EXTREME PAIN.  IT COULD BE FROM WHEN I FAINTED TWICE IN ONE NIGHTAND WOKE UP ON THE FLOOR-OR SOMETHING A LITTLE MY SERIOUS-LIKE MY KIDNEYS.  I SURE HOPE TO FIND OUT WHAT IT IS AND FIX IT TODAY.  VICKIE AND I HAD DINNER TOGETHER LAST NIGHT BEFORE MY MEETING.  WE GET ALONG SO WELL, AND HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON.  I DO THANK THE GOOD LORD ABOVE FOR HER EVERY NIGHT.  WELL MY DOGIES ARE FED, AND I AM UP AND DRESSED-NOT BAD FOR IT BEING ONLY 7:30AM.  BTW, THE SHOTS IN MY NECK HELPED, BUT NOT AS MUCH AS I HAD HOPED FOR-I SEE MY PAIN DR. AGAIN BEFORE MY TRIP, SO MAYBE HE CAN GIVE ME SOME OTHER KIND OF SHOTS THAT ARE A LITTLE STRONGER.  WELL, I NEED TO GO FINISH GETTING READY FOR THE BUSY MORNING AHEAD.  BTW THE PAIN DR. ALSO ORDERED AN MRI FOR MY NECK SO MAYBE THAT WILL HELP HIM SEE WHAT HE CAN DO TO HELP ME.  OK, I AM OFF TO EXERCISE THIS AM.. REMEMBER MISERY LOVES COMPANY, SO WHY NOT JOIN US??  TILL MONDAY-JUST ME

GREAT NIGHT AND SUNSHINNING MORNING!!

IT LOOKS LIKE WE MAY FINALLY GET SOME SUNSHINE HERE IN FLORIDA!!  WOKE UP THIS MORNING AND NO RAIN-FIRST TIME IN WHAT SEEMS LIKE WEEKS!!  I ALSO SLEPT VERY WELL LAST NIGHT WHICH ALSO HELPS WITH ONES MOOD.  I GOT THE LAST COUPLE THINGS I NEEDED FOR MY TRIP TO C.A. YESTERDAY, SO NOW ALL I HAVE TO DO IS PACK.  THINGS SEEMS TO BE HAPPENING EVERY DAY HERE, AND I GUESS THAT IS A GOOD THING-NOT SURE SOME DAYS.  THIS MORNING MY SISTER VICKIE AND I ARE GOING OVER TO HER DAUGHTER DAWN'S HOUSE SO THAT SHE CAN HELP HER COMPUTER ILLITERATE MOTHER, AND AUNT (ME) TO PUT OUR LINKS FOR THE ALZHEIMER'S WALK ON OUR FACEBOOK PAGES.  I WAS TRYING TO PUT SOME PICTURES OF SOMETHING I WANT TO SELL ON EBAY, AND SPENT HOURS TRYING AND FINALLY GAVE UP.  ONE OF THESE DAYS WHEN I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO I WILL MAYBE GET SOMEONE TO TEACH ME HOW TO DO THAT.  I HAVE MANY THINGS I COULD SELL, AND MAKE A FEW BUCKS AT IT.  ANY HOW, THE DOGS HAVE BEEN FED, AND I AM DRINKING MY CUP OF CAFE' CON LECHE', SO RIGHT NOW LIFE IS GOOD.  I CAN NOT WEAR MY BOTTOM PARCIAL UNTIL THE 9TH WHEN THEY FIX IT FOR ME, AS THE WIRES KEEP GETTING CAUGHT IN MY LIP OR MY CHEEK-AND IT HURTS!!  SO FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS I WILL BE MOSTLY TOOTHLESS ON THE BOTTOM.  THAT'S OK, IT COULD BE SO MUCH WORSE.  I TEND TO GET OVERWHELMED A LOT LATELY.  I THINK IT IS A COMBINATION OF MISSING MIKE, AND ALSO EVEN SICK AS HE WAS HE WAS ABLE TO DO MANY LITTLE THINGS FOR ME WHICH NOW I NEED TO DO. IT IS NOT THAT THERE'S SO MUCH THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE, IT IS MOSTLY THAT I STILL HAVE TROUBLE WANTING TO DO ANYTHING.  IF I COULD I WOULD PROBABLY STAY IN BED UNTIL NOON EVERY DAY, BUT THAT WOULD NOT BE GOOD I KNOW.  YESTERDAY I WENT TO MY PAIN DR. WHO GAVE ME ABOUT 10 OR 12 SHOTS IN MY NECK AND SHOULDER AREA.  YES THEY WERE A LITTLE PAINFUL, BUT MY NECK IS FEELING MUCH BETTER TODAY, AND I DID SLEEP ALL NIGHT SO THEY MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING TO HELP MY PAIN.  NOW I JUST NEED TO SEE THE KIDNEY DR. AND SEE IF THAT IS WHAT IS CAUSING THE PAIN IN MY BACK. I AM TRYING TO GET AS MUCH DONE BEFORE MY TRIP AS POSSIBLE, AS I DO NOT WANT TO SHOW UP THERE AND THEN HAVE A HEALTH PROBLEM.  WELL, THAT IS IT FOR TODAY-MAY THE SUN SHINE BRIGHT WHERE YOU ARE TOO-TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

I GOT A TWOFOR YESTERDAY!!

NOT THE KIND YOU NORMALLY WOULD BE HAPPY TO GET EITHER.  MY ORAL SURGEON ASKED IF I WANTED TO HAVE MY BACK WISDOM TOOTH PULLED OUT AT THE SAME TIME AS HE WAS GOING TO PULL OUT MY OTHER TOOTH (THE ONE HOLDING IN MY PARTIAL).  I SAID NO THANK YOU, I CAN ONLY AFFORD TO HAVE THIS ONE PULLED, AS I ALREADY SPENT MONEY TO HAVE IT FILLED ON FRIDAY.  HE WAS SUPER CUTE AND VERY NICE-HE SAID OK, HOW ABOUT IF I DO TWO FOR THE PRICE OF ONE?  I SAID GO FOR IT!!  SO NEEDLESS TO SAY I SPENT MOST OF THE DAY WITH GAUZE IN MY MOUTH, BUT THE PAIN WAS FINALLY GONE.  I SURE HOPE THESE ARE THE LAST TWO THAT WILL HAVE TO BE PULLED.  AT LEAST FOR A LONG LONG WHILE.  ANY HOW, I DID SLEEP VERY WELL LAST NIGHT, EXCEPT FOR THE TWO OR THREE TIMES THAT MY PRESLEY WOKE ME UP NEEDING TO GO OUTSIDE TO POTTY.   DON'T GET ME WRONG, I AM NOT UPSET-I SO MUCH RATHER HIM WAKE ME UP THAN GO ON THE FLOOR.  IT HAS JUST BEEN RAINING SO MUCH IT IS HARD FOR THEM TO BE ABLE TO GO OUTSIDE LIKE THEY NORMALLY WOULD.  ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE, I HEARD FROM MY SON MIKE JR. YESTERDAY.  WE FINALLY GOT TO SPEAK TO EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF JUST LEAVING A MESSAGE WHICH WE BOTH HAVE DONE NUMBEROUS  TIMES.  I KNOW IT IS VERY HARD ON HIM HAVING TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS OF HIS DAD SO FAR AWAY.  I JUST WISH MY KIDS HAD THE SAME ASSURANCE THAT I HAVE THAT I WILL GET TO SEE DAD AGAIN AND THE WAY THE WORLD IS HEADING-VERY SOON.  I THINK THE WALK TO END ALZHEIMER'S WILL BE A GOOD TIME FOR ALL OF US TO BE TOGETHER AND REMEMBER WHAT A GREAT DAD WE HAD. VICKIE AND I ARE WORKING HARD TO GET MEMBERS ON OUR TEAM.  MIKE JR. HAS JOINED (THANKS SON), AND I AM SURE WE WILL HAVE MANY MORE SUPPORTERS BEFORE IT'S TIME FOR THE WALK.  TODAY, I WILL GO TO THE GYM WITH MY SISTER VICKIE, THEN GO TO SEE MARTHA OUR NEIGHBOR WHO IS RECOUPERATING FROM HIP SURGERY.  IN THE AFTERNOON, I WILL BE AT MY PAIN DOCTOR'S FOR SOME SHOTS IN THE NECK AREA.  I HAVE NERVE DAMAGE THERE FROM A LONG TIME AGO, AND THE PAIN JUST GETS REALLY BAD FROM TIME TO TIME.  THE SHOTS HELP, AND I THINK I REALLY NEED THEM BEFORE MY LONG TRIP TO CA..  I AM ALREADY PACKING SOME THINGS AND AM SO EXCITED TO SEE MY SON AND HIS GIRLS LILLY, AND AUTUMN, AND OF COURSE HIS LOVELY WIFE LAURA.  WELL, MY CAFE' CON LECHE' IS GETTING COLD, AND I REALLY HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS-I NEED IT TO WAKE UP.  TOMORROW JAH. WILLING, IS ANOTHER DAY-I SURE HOPE IT WILL BE A DRY ONE!!!  JUST ME

REFLECTIONS MADE ME SAD

I DON'T KNOW WHY I WAS DWELLING ON THE LAST TWO DAYS OF MIKE'S LIFE, BUT YESTERDAY I WAS TRYING TO RELIVE WHAT ALL HAPPENED.  I WAS SAD BECAUSE I FELT I COULD HAVE/SHOULD HAVE DONE MORE TO PUT MIKE AT EASE.  I DON'T KNOW WHAT HELD ME BACK EXCEPT THE FEAR OF LOSING HIM.  SOMEWHERE IN MY MIND I WAS SAYING HE WOULD COME OUT OF THIS.  MIKE ALWAYS COMES OUT OF BAD SITUATIONS, SO WHY NOT THIS ONE?  WHEN IT DIDN'T HAPPEN, I BELIEVE I WENT INTO SOME FORM OF SHOCK.  I HARDLY REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM THE DAYS IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING, EXCEPT HOW HARD MIKE JR., LAURA, AND FONDA WERE WORKING TO MAKE THE HOUSE LOOK BETTER, AND GET RID OF SOME PAINFUL MEMORIES.  I AM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR ALL THEY DID, AND FOR LILLY AND AUTUMN PLAYING GAMES WITH ME (LIKE HIDE THE BALL), TO KEEP MY MIND OFF THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION.  IT WILL SOON BE THREE MONTHS SINCE MIKE PASSED, AND IT MIGHT AS WELL BE THREE DAYS.  IT STILL HURTS TO LOOK AT & KISS  HIS PICTURE WHICH I DO EVERY MORNING AND EVERY NIGHT.   I REALLY THINK IT IS THIS DARN RAIN THAT HAS PUT ME IN SUCH A NOSTALGIC MOOD.  ANY HOW, ON A DIFFERENT SUBJECT, I HAVE ANOTHER DENTAL APPOINTMENT TODAY, AND I AM GUESSING THEY WILL NEED TO PULL ONE OF THE TEETH I THOUGHT HAD BEEN SAVED.  SO FAR THE OTHER TOOTH SEEMS TO BE HOLDING IT'S OWN-I SURE HOPE THAT ONE CONTINUES TO DO SO.  I AM TRULY LOOKING FORWARD TO MY TRIP TO SEE MIKE JR., LAURA, & MY TWO BEAUTIFUL GRAND BABIES.  THEY ARE GROWING LIKE WEEDS, AND I NEED SOME HUGS & KISSES BEFORE THEY OUT GROW THAT STAGE.  MY SISTER VICKIE AND MY GRAND SON CANYON WILL BE GOING WITH ME.  I'M SURE WE WILL HAVE A MARVELOUS TIME-CAN'T WAIT.  I AM ALSO PLANNING A TRIP TO SEE TERRY & DAR-TWO OF MIKE AND MY BEST FRIENDS FOR MANY YEARS.  TERRY IS THE ONE WHO INTRODUCED MIKE AND I FOR WHICH I WILL FOREVER BE GRATEFUL.  WE HAD MANY UPS AND DOWNS (AS ALL MARRIED COUPLES DO), BUT WE DEEPLY LOVED EACH OTHER AND THAT IS THE GLUE THAT HELD US TOGETHER FOR SO LONG.  WELL, IN CASE YOU HAVE NOT ALREADY GUESSED IT-THERE IS MORE RAIN FOR TODAY.  MORE RAIN FOR TOMORROW, AND THE NEXT DAY TOO.  I LOVE THE RAIN, BUT ONLY WHEN I AM HOME, OR SLEEPING.  OTHER WISE, IT KEEPS ME TRAPPED INSIDE MY HOUSE, AS I CAN NOT DRIVE IN IT.  WELL, I THINK THAT IS ALL FOR TODAY.  I NEED TO EAT SOMETHING SINCE I TOOK MY MORNING PILLS.  HOPE IT IS DRY WHERE YOU ARE-TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

ANOTHER DAY=ANOTHER TOOTH ACHE!!

I THINK I AM ABOUT CONVINCED THAT I NEED TO JUST BITE THE BULLET AND HAVE THEM ALL PULLED OUT!!  THIS IS GETTING REALLY OLD-DOING IT ONE AT A TIME.  NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO SAVE A TOOTH-IN A FEW DAYS OR A WEEK-IT IS BACK TO BEING A BIG PROBLEM.  LAST WEEK I WAS SO HAPPY BECAUSE TWO TEETH THAT I WAS TOLD HAD TO BE PULLED-SEEMED TO HAVE BEEN GIVEN A REPRIEVE.  NOW-NOT SO MUCH.  IT IS ONE OF THOSE THAT I FEAR WILL HAVE TO BE PULLED.  SINCE I SEEM TO BE IN SUCH A FOUL MOOD ALREADY THIS AM. LET ME HAVE A FEW MORE MINUTES OF SELF PITY AS I TALK ABOUT THE ENDLESS RAIN.  TRULY I THINK THAT MIGHT JUST BE WHAT HAS SENT ME OVER THE TOP.  WE HAVE HAD RAIN FOR DAYS AND DAYS NOW, AND WITH TWO DOGS (PRISSY ONES AT THAT) IT HAS NOT BEEN MUCH FUN.  TO GET PRISKA TO GO OUTSIDE IN THE RAIN-I HAVE TO GO WITH HER!!  ISN'T LIFE GREAT?????  WELL, I SLEPT PRETTY GOOD LAST NIGHT, UNTIL ABOUT 4AM.  THEN I WAS WIDE AWAKE.  MAYBE THERE WAS THUNDER  STORM OR SOMETHING, BUT I WAS SURE AWAKE.  I JUST FEEL LIKE CRAWLING BACK INTO BED, BUT I KNOW THAT IS NOT A GOOD IDEA.  MY SISTER AND I HAVE A PLAN, AND SLEEPING TILL NOON IS NOT PART OF THAT PLAN.  MARTHA OUR NEIGHBOR IS DOING GREAT!!  SHE IS SUCH A CHAMP-I BET SHE WILL BE BACK HOME IN RECORD TIME.  I REALLY DON'T THINK I COULD DO HALF AS WELL AS SHE IS-AT ANY AGE, SHE IS AMAZING.  THE ONLY THING EXCITING I DID OVER THE WEEK END WAS HAVE LUNCH WITH OUR C.O. AND THE P.. IT IS SO SAD THAT THIS IS THEIR LAST VISIT WITH OUR CONG.. THEY TOLD US THE NAME OF THE NEW C.O. WHO WILL VISIT US NEXT, AND I AM SURE THEY WILL BE JUST AS LOVING, BUT WE SURE WILL MISS C. & C. V.. OH, I ALSO HAVE A BONE TO PICK WITH THE ORL. SENTINEL.  THEY GET ME TO SIGN UP ON A SPECIAL DEAL AND THEN I GET NO PAPER ON FRIDAY, AND NONE ON SUNDAY.  WHEN I CALLED SUNDAY AM TO FIND OUT WHY AND SEE IF I COULD STILL GET MY SUNDAY PAPER YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT THEY SAID. THEY CAN GET ME THE SUNDAY PAPER, BUT  IT WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND BE DELIVERED WITH MY PAPER ON MONDAY.  UNREAL.  ALSO, SO FAR TODAY, I DO NOT HAVE EITHER MY SUNDAY OR  MY MONDAY PAPER!!  I MAY HAVE TO CALL AND CANCEL THEM AGAIN!!  WELL, I GUESS THAT'S  ENOUGH GRIPING FOR ONE MORNING.  I NEED TO GET ON MY SWIM SUIT-NOT FOR THE GYM, JUST TO GET TO VICKIE'S CAR!!!  OH WELL, THIS IS MONDAY-RIGHT??? TILL TOMORROW-I WILL TRY AND BE IN A BETTER MOOD BY THEN-JUST ME

ANOTHER CRY AT THE DROP OF A HAT DAY

I HAD TO WIND UP TAKING A NERVE PILL YESTERDAY, AS I DID NOT WANT TO WIND UP WHERE I COULD NOT BREATHE OR TALK AGAIN.  I'M NOT EVEN SURE WHAT STARTED IT, BUT I COULD FEEL MYSELF GETTING READY TO LET LOOSE, SO I TOOK A NERVE PILL.  I USE THEM VERY SPARINGLY, BUT AT TIMES I KNOW I NEED ONE-YESTERDAY WAS LIKE THAT.  I WISH S.W. AIRLINES WOULD HAVE MORE CHOICES FROM SAN DIEGO TO ORLANDO.  THE ONLY TWO THEY HAVE-ONE LEAVES AT 6:45 AM, WHICH MEANS WE WOULD HAVE TO GET UP BY 5.  THE OTHER IS THE ONE WHICH I HAVE IT MAKES TWO STOPS AND ONE CHANGE GETTING US BACK HOME AT 11:05PM.. IT WAS STILL THE BEST PRICE OF ALL THE AIR LINES, SO THAT IS WHAT WE BOOKED.  I JUST HOPE CANYON WILL HAVE A GOOD TIME-I KNOW HE REALLY WANTS TO GO AND SEE HIS UNCLE MIKE AND THE GIRLS, BUT HE HAS NEVER BEEN AWAY FROM HIS PARENTS FOR A WEEK BEFORE, SO I AM HOPING FOR THE BEST.  I WAS VERY PROUD OF MY SISTER VICKIE AND I YESTERDAY, AS WE WENT SWIMMING TO MAKE UP FOR WEDS. WHEN WE WERE JUST TOO BUSY TO GO DO OUR EXERCISES.  WE WILL GO AGAIN TODAY, AND THAT WILL GET US RIGHT BACK ON TRACK.  THREE TIMES  A WEEK!!   I FINALLY GOT MY HAIR TRIMMED-I HAD NOT DONE ANYTHING WITH IT SINCE MIKE GOT SO SICK.  I AM TRYING TO CATCH UP ON A LOT OF THINGS, BUT MOSTLY HEALTH WISE.  SO FAR THIS AM IT LOOKS LIKE A NICE DAY, BUT WE HAVE BEEN GETTING RAIN EVERYDAY AND THAT IS WHAT IS FORECAST FOR EVERY DAY THIS WEEK END, AND NEXT WEEK AS WELL.  YUCK!!  I LOVE THE RAINY NIGHTS (THERE'S A SONG BY THAT TITLE), BUT NOT DURING THE DAY WHEN I NEED TO GO PLACES, AND GET SOME THINGS DONE.  IT JUST MAKES ME VERY SLEEPY, AND EVERYTHING HURTS.  VICKIE WILL BE OVER SOON, AS TODAY IS ANOTHER EXERCISE DAY FOR US.  IT IS SO MUCH EASIER TO GO TO THE GYM WITH A PARTNER.  THE TIME GOES BY QUICKER BECAUSE YOU ARE BUSY TALKING.  WE WILL ALSO TRY AND HIT A COUPLE GARAGE SALES BEFORE THE RAIN-IF ANY SOULS ARE BRAVE ENOUGH TO TRY AND HAVE ONE TODAY.  I STILL NEED A COUPLE THINGS FOR THE TRIP, BUT I MOSTLY HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED.  FELINA CALLED, AND SHE IS DELIVERING ANOTHER BABY AGAIN.  I'M SO HAPPY THAT SHE HAS FOUND SOMETHING SHE LOVES, AND IS SO GOOD AT.  WELL, MY CAFE' CON LECHE' IS GETTING COLD, SO I NEED TO FINISH THAT AND THEN GET DRESSED.  I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WEEK END, AS I HAVE BEEN INVITED TO RAY & CLAIRE P. FOR LUNCH WITH THE C.O. AFTER SERVICE TOMORROW.  I FEEL BLESSED BEYOND BELIEF!!  HOPE YOUR WEEK END WILL HOLD MANY BLESSINGS AS WELL-JUST ME

ALZHEIMER'S STRIKES AGAIN

NO, NO ONE ELSE I PERSONALLY KNOW HAS COME DOWN WITH THE DISEASE, BUT I DID GO TO THE KICK OFF MEETING LAST NIGHT FOR THE ALZHEIMER'S WALK IN OCT..  I HAD TO FIGHT BACK TEARS THE WHOLE TIME THINKING ABOUT HOW THIS DREADFUL DISEASE TOOK SO MUCH AWAY FROM MY FAMILY.  THIS YEAR MY SISTER VICKIE AND I ARE GOING TO BE CO-CAPTAINS OF A TEAM TO HELP RAISE AWARENESS, AND FUNDS FOR THE DISEASE.  I HAVE COME UP WITH A FEW IDEAS, AS DID MY SISTER VICKIE, AND I HOPE TO GET A LOT OF FAMILY SUPPORT THIS YEAR.  I DON'T KNOW IF MY SON HAS A PRIVATE FACE BOOK PAGE, OR MAYBE LAURA, BUT I AM HOPING TO GET ALL MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN (WHO ARE OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE A FACE BOOK PAGE) TO GET INVOLVED A LITTLE BIT THIS YEAR, AND PUT A LINK TO MY WEB PAGE FOR THE ALZHEIMER'S WALK ON THEIR FACE BOOK PAGE.  WE ARE DOING THE WALK THIS YEAR IN MEMORY OF MIKE (DAD, GRANDPA).  ALSO IF ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS ON HOW I CAN RAISE SOME FUNDS (BAKE SALE, GARAGE SALE, OR SOMETHING NEW AND DIFFERENT), PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  I CAN USE ALL THE HELP I CAN GET WITH THIS PROJECT.  OK, ENOUGH SAID ON THAT, I HAD AN AMAZING VISIT YESTERDAY WITH OUR C.O..  HE IS YOUNG AND SO DOWN TO EARTH.  VERY KIND AND ENCOURAGING-I AM TRULY GRATEFUL FOR GOD'S GIFTS IN MEN OF THAT SORT.  ON OTHER NEWS, MARTHA OUR NEIGHBOR WILL BE MOVED TO A NURSING HOME TODAY FOR JUST TWO WEEKS.  SHE IS DOING VERY WELL, AND LOOKS GREAT.  I SURE HOPE SHE WILL BE BACK HOME SOON.  YESTERDAY WAS SO SUPER BUSY, THAT VICKIE AND I MISSED OUR VERY FIRST DAY OF EXERCISE SINCE WE STARTED GOING THREE TIMES A WEEK.  WE ARE GOING TO TRY AND MAKE UP FOR IT TODAY.  I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW SO MANY THINGS KEEP GETTING IN THE WAY.  WE BOTH HAVE HAD TROUBLE WITH OUR TEETH, AND HAVE HAD SOME DR.'S APPOINTMENTS WHICH I STILL HAVE THREE MORE TO GO-MAYBE FOUR IF YOU COUNT THE SHOTS IN MY NECK.  ANY HOW, WE ARE BOTH DOING BETTER EMOTIONALLY FOR THE MOST PART.  AT LEAST UNTIL SOMEONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT OUR HUSBANDS, THEN THE TEAR JUST FLOW.  I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG IT WILL TAKE FOR THAT TO STOP HAPPENING-MAYBE IT NEVER WILL.  I KNOW WE HAVE ALL SUFFERED A GREAT LOSS, AND HOPEFULLY TIME WILL HELP HEAL US ALL.  WELL, MY DOGIES HAVE BEEN FED, AND NOW I NEED TO GET DRESSED SO THAT WE CAN HOPEFULLY MAKE IT TO THE GYM.  HOPE YOUR DAY BRINGS YOU A HAPPY HEART-JUST ME

BUSY BUT FULFILLING DAY

IT WAS A VERY BUSY DAY YESTERDAY, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I FELT THAT IT HAD BEEN A GOOD DAY.  I HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD TO STAY BUSY TO KEEP MY MIND OFF MIKE, AND IT NOW SEEMS LIKE "BUSY" HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE.  I SEEM TO STAY THAT WAY EVERY DAY FROM THE MOMENT I WAKE UP UNTIL BED TIME. AT THE END OF EVERY WEEK I WILL SAY NEXT WEEK HAS TO BE BETTER-LESS BUSY, BUT THEN JUST THE OPPOSITE HAPPENS.  I GET INVITED HERE AND THERE, AND THEN I GET A CALL THAT THE C.O. WANTS TO COME OVER, AND ON MY WAY TO THE MEETING LAST NIGHT, I GET INVITED TO LUNCH WITH THE C.O. AND HIS LOVELY WIFE CINDY AT RAY & CLAIRE P. HOUSE.  OF COURSE I AM THRILLED, AS IT HAS BEEN YEARS SINCE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HAVE LUNCH WITH THE C.O., OR HAVE A SHEPHERDING VISIT.  THAT'S HOW "BUSY" WORKS. MOST OF THE TIME IT IS GOOD THINGS I AM BUSY WITH,  BUT I JUST WENT FROM NEVER BEING ABLE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE BECAUSE I WAS SO AFRAID IF I LEFT THAT'S WHEN SOMETHING BAD MIGHT HAPPEN TO MIKE. NOW I AM ON THE GO CONSTANTLY-QUITE THE CHANGE, AND A LITTLE DIZZYING. HEY, MAYBE THAT WHY I FAINTED TWICE IN ONE NIGHT-IT'S ALL "BUSY'S" FAULT!!!!  ANY HOW YESTERDAY I GOT MY HAIR CUT FINALLY, AND WENT TO SEE MARTHA AT THE HOSPITAL.  I HAVE ALSO BEEN TRYING TO FIND A COUPLE OF THINGS FOR MY UPCOMING TRIP TO CA.  LIKE A BATHING SUIT THAT ACTUALLY FITS ME  (I JUST GOT ONE ON E-BAY LAST NIGHT-AFTER I CAME HOME FROM MY MEETING)!!!  SEE----"BUSY".    I DO HAVE TO CALL MY PCP, AND GET A REFERRAL FOR A CHIROPRACTOR TODAY.  MY BACK IS STILL GIVING ME FITS, AND I NEED TO GET THAT TAKEN CARE OF BEFORE MY TRIP.  TODAY IS GOING TO BE ANOTHER PRETTY BUSY DAY.  FIRST I WILL GO TO MY EXERCISE CLASS WITH VICKIE.  THEN WE WILL GO SEE MARTHA AT THE HOSPITAL.  I KNOW VICKIE HAS A DENTIST APPOINTMENT, AND I HAVE SOME CALLS TO MAKE.  THEN WE HAVE THE KICK OFF MEETING FOR THE ANNUAL ALZHEIMER'S WALK.  VICKIE AND I ARE BOTH CO-CAPTAINS.  IT WILL BE SO SAD THIS YEAR, AS LAST YEAR WE DID THE WALK WITH MIKE IN A WHEEL CHAIR-NOW BOTH HE AND MY SISTER'S HUSBAND GEORGE ARE GONE.  WE ARE DOING THIS IN THEIR MEMORY.  WELL, I GUESS I HAVE GONE ON AND ON LONG ENOUGH, SO TILL TOMORROW AM-DON'T LOOK BEHIND-THE FUTURE IS STRAIGHT AHEAD-JUST ME

HURT MORE THAN I THOUGHT

WHEN I FAINTED LAST WEEK DURING MY COLONOSCOPY PREP, I ONLY THOUGHT I BRUISED BOTH MY ELBOWS AND THAT WAS IT.  IT SEEMS THAT MY HIPS ALSO ARE VERY BRUISED, WHICH EXPLAINS WHY MY LOWER BACK HAS BEEN KILLING ME SINCE MY FALLS.  I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN MORE THAN MY ELBOWS HIT THE FLOOR, BUT SINCE I KNEW NOTHING WAS BROKEN-I WAS A HAPPY CAMPER. PATCHES WILL HAVE TO HELP WITH THE PAIN FOR THE TIME BEING.  ANY HOW I AM SURE THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY IN A FEW MORE DAYS-AT LEAST I HOPE SO.  MY SISTER VICKIE AND I WILL GO SEE MARTHA AGAIN TODAY-SHE JUST HAD HIP SURGERY, AND AT 80 SHE IS AMAZING!!  SHE CAME OUT GREAT-THE DR. SAID AS GOOD AS COULD BE EXPECTED. WE ARE ALL HAPPY AND THANKFUL FOR THAT.  SHE IS A VERY SWEET LADY AND PART OF OUR NEWLY FORMED WIDOWS CLUB.  ANY HOW, I DO HAVE A MEETING TONIGHT, SO THE DAY WILL SURLY GO BY VERY FAST.  I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO SKYPE MY SON AND MY BEAUTIFUL GRAND BABIES, BUT TIMING JUST NEVER SEEMS TO BE RIGHT.  MAYBE TONIGHT BEFORE I GO TO MY MEETING.  THEY ARE SO CUTE AND SO SWEET, I CAN HARDLY WAIT TO SEE THEM WHEN I GO TO CA. NEXT MONTH.  I HAVE BEEN DOING A LITTLE GARAGE SAILING, AND FOUND A COUPLE THINGS I NEEDED FOR MY TRIP.  I FOUND SOME CUTE TOPS, AND EVEN A NEW SUMMER ROBE WHICH I REALLY NEEDED AS MY OTHER TWO ARE FULL OF HAIR DYE, AND LOOK HORRIBLE.  I WISH MY SISTER VICKIE COULD BE ON THE SAME FLIGHTS AS ME-I WOULD LOVE TO BUY HER A TICKET, BUT NEITHER OF US ARE LOADED, PLUS SHE DOES GET TO FLY FREE, JUST ON A DIFFERENT AIR LINE.  I HAD TO GO WITH SOUTH WEST, AS I GOT THE LOWEST FAIRS WITH THEM, AND SINCE I AM TAKING CANYON WITH ME-EVERY DOLLAR I COULD SAVE WAS A HUGE HELP.  PLUS SOUTH WEST LETS YOU CHECK ONE BAG IN FOR FREE, AND THE OTHERS WANT $25. TO DO THAT, SO FOR BOTH CANYON AND MYSELF, THAT WOULD HAVE ADDED $100. TO OUR AIR FARE.  OH WELL, I AM SURE IT WILL ALL WORK OUT, AND WE WILL ALL HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH MIKE JR., LAURA, AND THE GIRLS.  OH LAURA, I FINALLY ATE ONE OF THE EGG PLANTS FROM THE GARDEN YOU GUYS PLANTED FOR ME!!  YUM!!!!  THE TOMATOES ARE DOING VERY WELL TOO, I WILL EAT ONE TONIGHT.  WELL, THAT IS IT FOR ME, MY CAFE' CON LECHE' IS WAITING, AND HAS A STRONG PULL THIS HOUR OF THE MORNING.  SO TILL TOMORROW-THE GIFT OF TODAY IS WAITING FOR YOU-JUST ME

STAYING WAY WAY TOO BUSY!!

I HAVE FELT LIKE A MARATHON RUNNER THIS ENTIRE WEEK END!!  I GO FROM ONE PLACE TO THE NEXT, AND IT IS HARD TO ENJOY THE MOMENT WHEN YOU KEEP THINKING HOW YOU ARE GOING TO BE LATE FOR THE NEXT THING YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE DOING.  THAT WAS MY WHOLE WEEK END.  SOMETIMES EVERYTHING FALLS ON THE SAME DAY OR DAYS, AND THAT IS STILL GOING ON THIS WEEK-STARTING WITH TODAY!!  THIS AM I HAVE MY SWIMMING EXERCISES, THEN I NEED TO COME HOME AND CHANGE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND SEE MARTHA.  I WAS ALSO SUPPOSE TO HAVE A CHIROPRACTOR APPOINTMENT, BUT I THINK I CANCELLED IT-I HOPE SO ANY WAY, BUT THEY STILL CALLED ME YESTERDAY TO REMIND ME OF IT.  TUES. IS ALSO VERY BUSY WITH THE CIRCUIT OVERSEER BEING IN TOWN WE HAVE ONE EXTRA MEETING THIS WEEK ON TUESDAY.  THEN THERE IS SWIMMING AGAIN ON WEDS. AM, AND AN ALZHEIMER'S KICK OF MEETING AROUND 5PM.  THEN OF COURSE IT IS THURSDAY ALREADY, AND I HAVE MY OTHER MEETING.  WHEW.  I HAVE NOT EVEN LOOKED AT MY CALENDAR YET, AS I AM AFRAID I MISSED SOMETHING IMPORTANT.  I DID HAVE MY FAMILY STUDY YESTERDAY AT FELINA'S, AND IT WAS SO GREAT TO SEE AND HOLD MINKA.  JAKKI ALSO GAVE ME A FEW MORE PICTURES OF HER WHICH ARE JUST PRECIOUS.  I DO SEEM TO BE SLEEPING BETTER-PROBABLY FROM SHEER  EXHAUSTION!!  YESTERDAY WAS A VERY HARD DAY FOR FONDA AND MY SON I AM SURE.  THE FIRST FATHER'S DAY WITH OUT THEIR DAD. I KNOW THAT FELINA SAID EVEN THOUGH WE DON'T CELEBRATE THE HOLIDAY, SHE WOULD ALWAYS CALL MIKE ON THAT DAY JUST TO SAY SHE LOVES HIM AND WAS THINKING OF HIM.  HIS NOT BEING HERE HAS LEFT A HUGE HOLE IN ALL OF OUR HEARTS, THAT I FEAR ONLY TIME (AND THE NEW SYSTEM) CAN HEAL..  HE WAS SUCH A BIG PART IN OUR LIVES, HE WILL NOT EVER BE FAR FROM OUR HEARTS !!!  I AM VERY HAPPY ABOUT THAT.  I WAS IN THE DENTIST CHAIR NEARLY THREE HOURS ON SAT. AFTER SERVICE, AND MY WHOLE MOUTH WAS SORE, AS HE HAD TO GIVE ME THOSE NUMBING SHOTS ALL OVER THE PLACE.  HE FIXED THREE TEETH, BUT THEY WERE ALL ON OPPOSITE SIDES OF MY MOUTH.  SOME ON THE UPPER AND TWO ON THE BOTTOM!!  NO MATTER-I AM TRULY GRATEFUL!!  WELL I DO NEED TO GET ON MY BATHING SUIT, AND GET READY FOR VICKIE WHO WILL BE PICKING ME UP SHORTLY.  SURE HOPE YOUR WEEK END WAS AN ESPECIALLY HAPPY ONE-JUST ME

SO VERY VERY FORTUNATE!!

I FEEL SO FORTUNATE TO HAVE FAINTED TWICE AND NOT BROKEN ANY THING!!  I COULD HAVE EVEN HIT MY HEAD ON MY FURNITURE GOING DOWN, OR THE SINK IN THE BATH ROOM.  WHEN I REALIZED THAT I COULD HAVE BLED OUT DURING THE NIGHT BUT INSTEAD ALL I HAVE ARE TWO VERY BRUISED ELBOWS, I WAS FILLED WITH GRATITUDE.  SOMEBODY UP THERE WAS LOOKING OUT FOR ME I FEEL SURE.  ANY HOW THIS AM I AM UP AND FEELING MORE LIKE MY OLE SELF.  MY TUMMY IS STILL A LITTLE SORE, BUT I AM SURE THAT WILL GO AWAY SOON TOO.  I SLEPT LIKE A LOG LAST NIGHT-MAYBE THAT IS JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO MAKE UP FOR THE TWO PREVIOUS NIGHTS.  ANY HOW, I AM GLAD TO BE UP AND ONLY HAVE THE "Y" AND MY MEETING TONIGHT ON MY SCHEDULE.  I DID HAVE A CRAZY DREAM-AT LEAST COMPARED TO THE ONES I NORMALLY HAVE.  I WAS ON A BUS OR SOMETHING, SITTING BEHIND A PRIEST, WHO WAS TALKING WITH SOMEONE ELSE.  THEN HE TURNS TO ME AND I TOLD HIM THAT I HAD JUST LOST MY HUSBAND TWO MONTHS AGO.  HE SAID THAT WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER TO FACE ANYTHING ELSE BIG THAT HAPPENS IN YOUR LIFE.  I LOOKED AT HIM LIKE HE WAS NUTS, AND I SAID "WHAT COULD BE WORSE THAN LOSING MY HUSBAND"? AND THEN I STARTED TO CRY IN MY DREAM.  I DO KNOW THERE ARE WORST THINGS, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO THERE-THIS HEART CAN ONLY TAKE JUST SO MUCH SADNESS AT ONE TIME.  I DID HEAR FROM MY OTHER DAUGHTER FELINA YESTERDAY AGAIN.  SHE IS WORKING HARD, AND BABYSITTING A LOT.  I AM SO JEALOUS!!  I CAN'T WAIT TILL IT IS MY TURN.  OF COURSE WITH ALL THE DOCTOR'S AND DENTIST APPOINTMENTS AS OF LATE, IT MAY HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL SUNDAY WHEN WE HAVE OUR FAMILY STUDY TOGETHER.  MY SISTER VICKIE AND I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT NEXT WEDS. AT 6PM AS CO CAPTAIN'S OF THE NEXT ALZHEIMER'S WALK.  I WILL BE THINKING OF MIKE EVERY MINUTE I AM SURE, BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO DO WHAT EVER I CAN TO STAMP OUT THIS HORRIBLE DISEASE.  MY SON MIKE EVEN SAID HE MAY COME DOWN FOR THE WALK-I AM THRILLED.  IT WOULD BE GREAT IF ALL MY KIDS AND GRAND KIDS (AND EVEN LITTLE MINKA) WOULD GO ON THE WALK THAT DAY WITH ME.  IT WILL BE SAD, BUT DAD DID IT TO HELP OTHERS, AND I WANT TO CONTINUE DOING SO TOO.  WELL, THAT WRAPS IT UP FOR ME THIS AM.  I HAVE AN EXERCISE CLASS WAITING FOR ME, AND A SISTER WHO WILL BE CALLING ANY SEC.. HOPE YOUR DAY AND YOUR WEEK END WILL BRING UNTOLD HAPPY SURPRISES.  TILL MONDAY-JUST ME

FAINTED NOT ONCE BUT TWICE LAST NIGHT!!

ONCE I WAS ON MY WAY BACK FROM THE BATH ROOM WHEN DOWN I WENT.  I WOKE UP ON THE FLOOR, AND CLIMBED BACK INTO BED. NEXT THING I KNEW-I HAD TO GO VISIT THE BATH ROOM AGAIN.  SAME THING HAPPENED ONLY IN REVERSE.  AS FAR AS I KNOW THE ONLY THING I BROKE WAS A NAIL, THANKFULLY.  I DID FIND A WHOLE ROLL OF TOILET PAPER IN THE SINK SOAKING WET-NOT SURE HOW THAT HAPPENED.  THIS AM I FEEL LIKE A ZOMBIE.  I CAN HARDLY FIND THE ENERGY TO FEED MY POOR DOGS.  THIS PREP BUSINESS SURE IS NOT ANY FUN!!! MY SISTER VICKIE WILL BE HERE THIS AM TO TAKE ME FOR THE COLONOSCOPY, AND I WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN IT IS OVER.  THEN I GET A TWO MAYBE EVEN THREE YEAR REPRIEVE IF THERE ARE NO POLYPS THIS TIME.  SURE GLAD MY MEETING WAS CHANGED AGAIN FROM THURS. TO FRIDAY THIS WEEK.  OTHER WISE I DON'T THINK I WOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE IT. I KNOW THAT YESTERDAY'S BLOG WAS SHORT, AND THIS ONE WILL NO DOUBT BE TOO, BUT I AM TRULY IN A FOG.  MAYBE WHEN I GET HOME IF I AM FEELING BETTER I CAN ADD MORE TO IT.  ANY HOW I DO HAVE A DENTIST APPOINTMENT ON SAT. AT NOON.  STRANGE HUH??  THAT'S OK AS LONG AS THEY CAN DO WHAT MY OTHER DENTIST SAID HE COULD NOT I WILL BE THRILLED.  I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED.  I WILL TRY AND LAY DOWN TILL VICKIE GETS HERE-SHOULD BE ANY TIME NOW.  SHE SURE HAS BEEN A BLESSING TO ME, BUT THEN-I HAVE HAD SO MANY IT IS HARD TO KEEP TRACK!!  MY KIDS ARE ALSO BLESSINGS AND MIKE B. IS ONE OF THEM.  WELL, TILL LATER-HOPE YOUR DAY DOES NOT INVOLVED ANY PROBING.  JUST ME

I THINK I AM GOING BACKWARDS!!

FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON, YESTERDAY WAS ONE OF MY WORST DAYS-AS FAR AS MIKE GOES. I COULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM, AND EVERY TIME I LOOKED AT HIS PICTURE I STARTED TO CRY.  I EVEN LEFT MY SISTER VICKIE'S HOUSE RIGHT AFTER DINNER, AS I HAD BEEN WEEPY AT HER HOUSE TOO, AND I DID NOT WANT TO BRING HER DOWN TO A BAD PLACE.  I SURE HOPE TODAY WILL BE BETTER-NOT SURE HOW OR WHY IT SHOULD BE-IT IS MY COLONOSCOPY PREP DAY-YUCK!!!  I DON'T HAVE TO START TAKING STUFF UNTIL NOON, SO I AM STILL GOING TO THE "Y" TO EXERCISE WITH MY SISTER.  WHO KNOWS, MAYBE THAT WILL MAKE MY MOOD A LITTLE BETTER.  I DO KNOW THAT I HAVE NOT TAKEN ANY NERVE PILLS FOR WEEKS NOW-MAYBE YESTERDAY WAS MY REMINDER THAT THIS IS NOT OVER YET AND THAT STOPPING THE NERVE PILLS WHEN I DID WAS NOT TOO SMART.  WELL, I KNOW THIS IS SUPER SHORT, BUT I NEED TO GET DRESSED AS MY SISTER JUST CALLED AND SHE WILL BE HERE TO PICK ME UP IN JUST A FEW MINUTES.  I WILL TRY AND ADD ON TO THIS LATER IN BETWEEN BATH ROOM RUNS IF I CAN. IF NOT-I WILL BE BACK IN THE AM-SORE HINNY AND ALL.  HAVE A SUPERB DAY-I WILL TRY AND DO THE SAME.  JUST ME

TUES. MY NEXT DAY AT THE DENTIST

TODAY I HAVE ANOTHER TOOTH THAT THEY WILL MOST LIKELY PULL.  I AM MORE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS ONE THAN THE LAST, AS IT IS A TOOTH THAT SUPPORTS MY PARTIAL.  NOT SURE WHAT THE PLAN IS TO FIX THAT.  WHAT EVER HAS TO BE HAS TO BE, AS I ALREADY KNOW THEY CAN NOT SAVE THIS TOOTH.  MY SISTER VICKIE AND I WERE CURSED WITH BAD TEETH GENES.  YES, I WAS NOT TOTALLY INNOCENT-I LIKE MY HARD CANDIES, AND ALMOST ANY OTHER KIND OF SWEET, BUT WHEN YOU HAVE BAD GENES, YOU ARE PRETTY MUCH CURSED NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO.  IT ALL STARTED WITH RECEDING GUMS WHICH MY MOTHER HAD, MY DAD LOST ALL HIS TEETH IN THE MILITARY.  THEY THOUGHT IT WAS THE CAUSE OF HIS PROBLEM STOMACH, ONLY TO FIND OUT (AFTER THEY PULLED ALL HIS TEETH OUT) THAT IT WAS SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT CAUSING HIS PROBLEM.  HE WAS ONLY IN HIS EARLY 20'S AT THE TIME!!  I ONLY HAVE LESS THAN HALF MY ORIGINAL TEETH, AND I CAN NOT IMAGINE THE PAIN OF HAVING THEM ALL PULLED OUT AT THE SAME TIME.   THEY DON'T MAKE EM LIKE MY DAD ANY MORE!!  ANY HOW, I SLEPT PRETTY WELL AGAIN LAST NIGHT-HAD A LITTLE BREAK DOWN BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP.  JUST LOOKING AT MIKE'S PICTURE, AND KNOWING HE WAS HERE BESIDE ME SUCH A SHORT TIME AGO IS STILL SO FRESH AND HARD.  I KNOW MIKE WOULD NOT WANT ME TO KEEP MOURNING HIM, AND I TRY SO HARD TO KEEP FOCUSED ON THE FUTURE, BUT IT STILL HITS HOME HARD AT TIMES.  I DO MISS HIM SO.   TOMORROW I WILL HAVE TO START MY PREP FOR THE COLONOSCOPY ON THURS., AND SO MY SISTER WILL BRING HER GRAND DAUGHTER MADISON OVER TO PLAY SOME GAMES WITH US.  THAT WAY I CAN STAY CLOSE TO THE REST ROOM.  I WONDER WHY THEY DECIDED TO CALL IT THAT.  THERE IS NO BED IN THERE, AND PEOPLE ARE NOT RESTING WHEN THEY ARE IN THERE.  ANY HOW, I AM TRYING TO KEEP FOCUSED ON TWO THINGS RIGHT NOW.  MY SPIRITUALITY, AND MY UP COMING TRIP TO CA.. BOTH MAKE ME HAPPY, AND I REALLY DO TRY AND THINK POSITIVELY AS MUCH AS I CAN.  LIFE CAN SURE DEAL US SOME SHARP CURVES AT TIMES, PAINFUL ONES WHEN WE LEAST EXPECT IT.  THE BEST THING I THINK I CAN DO IS STAY BUSY AS I CAN DOING MORE VOLUNTEER WORK, AND THAT WAY TIME WILL PASS MORE QUICKLY.  TIME I AM TOLD IS THE BEST HEALER.  I EVEN THINK I WILL ENLIST PRESLEY TO GO WITH ME TO SOME OF THE HOSPICE HOMES AS A COMFORT DOG.  HE IS VERY LOVING AND GENTLE, AND I THINK THE KIDS WILL LOVE SEEING AND PETTING HIM.  I WILL START WORKING ON THAT NEXT WEEK.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

BEAUTIFUL MORNING SO FAR

SO FAR NO RAIN, BUT WE SURE HAD A STORM LAST NIGHT!!  I HAD SEVERAL DREAMS TOO. I WENT TO BED EARLY-AS SOON AS THE STORM STARTED-JUST IN CASE THE LIGHTS WOULD GO OUT AGAIN.   MOST OF THE TIME I DON'T REMEMBER ANY OF MY DREAMS, BUT LATELY, THEY SEEM SO REAL-AT LEAST UNTIL I WAKE UP.  LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF MIKE AGAIN.  THIS TIME HE KISSED ME, AND I WISH I DID NOT HAVE TO WAKE UP.  OH HOW I LONG TO SEE THAT MAN AGAIN.  TODAY I HAVE MY EXERCISE CLASS WITH MY SISTER VICKIE.  YESTERDAY SHE HAD A COOK OUT IN HER BACK YARD.  I LOVE ALL THE PEOPLE THAT WERE THERE, BUT I JUST COULDN'T BRING MYSELF TO GO OVER.  THAT IS UNTIL MY SWEET LITTLE NIECE DEBBIE CAME OVER AND GOT ME.  SHE IS SO CUTE AND I DO LOVE HER AND HER FAMILY VERY MUCH.  I WAS WAITING FOR DAVID M. TO COME PUT THE OTHER HALF OF THE BIBLE ON MY I PAD OR POD (I GET THEM CONFUSED).  HE PUT THE FIRST HALF ON THERE FOR ME AND NOW I NEED HIM TO PUT THE SECOND HALF.  I'M NOT SURE IF WE GOT OUR WIRES CROSSED OR WHAT, BUT HE NEVER SHOWED UP, SO BY 8:30PM I WAS IN BED.  WHY IS IT WHEN WE ARE YOUNG, WE WANT TO STAY UP AS LATE AS POSSIBLE, WE FIGHT GOING TO BED LIKE IT WAS OUR MORTAL ENEMY.  YET, WHEN WE GET OLDER (LIKE ME), I CAN'T WAIT TO GET INTO BED AT NIGHT.  I HAVE NO DESIRE TO STAY UP LATE-MAYBE IT'S MY TEMPORPEDIC BED-WHO KNOWS??  ANY HOW, PRESLEY IS ALL BETTER NOW, AND BACK TO HIS OLE SWEET SELF.  I'VE BEEN ADDING COCONUT OIL TO BOTH OF MY DOGIES FOOD AS WELL AS 1/2 TEASPOON OF METAMUCIL.  I AM HOPING THAT WILL PERMANENTLY SOLVE THE PROBLEM.  I AM SIPPING MY YUMMY CUP OF CAFE' CON LECHE', AND I WONDER HOW PEOPLE CAN WAKE UP WITH OUT IT.  MY DAUGHTER HAS BECOME ADDICTED TO IT TOO-SHE COMES OVER NEARLY EVERY DAY FOR HER CUP OF YUMMY!!  MY SON CALLED YESTERDAY, BUT THE GIRLS WERE NAPPING SO WE DID NOT GET TO SKYPE.  IT WAS SO NICE TO HEAR HIS VOICE-HE WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABY BOY.  I AM SO HAPPY THAT HE FOUND SUCH A GOOD WIFE-SHE IS JUST AWESOME.  I MISS SEEING LITTLE LILLY AND AUTUMN, BUT I WILL BE THERE SOON. I CAN HARDLY WAIT.  I MISS SEEING MY LITTLE MINKA THE NEWEST MEMBER OF OUR FAMILY TOO.  I AM HOPING I WILL GET TO SEE HER AGAIN THIS WEEK-THEY GROW SO FAST IN THE BEGINNING.  HECK, THEY GROW SO FAST PERIOD!!  WHEN WE ARE YOUNG, WE NEVER THINK THAT SOME DAY I WILL BE A GREAT GRAND MOTHER, OR THAT I WILL SOME DAY BE ALONE.  MOST OF US (AT LEAST ME) JUST TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME, AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT-YOU CAN NO LONGER COUNT THAT HIGH!! I'M JUST THANKFUL TO STILL BE HERE, AND I HOPE IT WILL BE FOR A LONG LONG TIME.  THIS WEEK WILL BE BUSY WITH MORE DENTIST VISITS, AND MY COLONOSCOPY.  THEN I WILL TAKE A REST FROM DAILY DOCTORS FOR A WHILE.  AT LEAST UNTIL I GET BACK FROM CA.  THAT'S IT FOR ME TODAY-LIKE THE MOVIE SAID, EAT, PRAY, LOVE-JUST ME

MORE RAIN AHEAD, BUT PRESLEY'S MUCH BETTER!!

THANKS TO FONDA WHO BROUGHT OVER PAIN PILLS, NERVE PILLS, SPRAY AWAY PAIN SPRAY, STUFF FOR HIS FOOD, AND MORE.  SHE TAKES AS GOOD OF CARE OF MY DOGS AS SHE DOES ME!!  I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR HER HELP AND CONCERN.  I STILL HAVE A LITTLE INFECTION ON GOING-IT SEEMS TO BE MOSTLY IN MY CHIN AND LIP.  THE DENTIST SAID TO KEEP TAKING THE ANTIBIOTICS AND THE INFECTION SHOULD SLOWLY DISAPPEAR.  SURE HOPE HE IS RIGHT!!  I EVEN SMILE CROOKED RIGHT NOW.  ANY HOW, TODAY IS FRIDAY, AND IT IS ANOTHER EXERCISE DAY FOR MY SISTER VICKIE AND ME.  WE HAVE REALLY STUCK TO OUR THREE DAYS A WEEK SCHEDULE, AND IT HAS BEEN GOOD FOR BOTH OF US I THINK.  TONIGHT IS MY MEETING, AS IT WAS SWITCHED OVER FROM THURS. TO TONIGHT.  IT WILL BE WONDERFUL TO SEE THE FRIENDS AGAIN-THEY SHOULD GET A KICK OUT OF MY "NEW SMILE"!!  ANY HOW, I AM FINALLY FEELING BETTER, SO THAT IS A BIG PLUS.  LAST NIGHT I SLEPT SO WELL, I DID NOT WANT TO GET OUT OF BED THIS AM.  I AM HAPPY TO BE SLEEPING MORE NORMAL AGAIN.  THE DOGS HAVE BEEN A HUGE HELP FOR ME IN THAT DEPT. AS THEY SLEEP WITH ME NOW.  NEXT WEEK I HAVE MY COLONOSCOPY-NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT, BUT I MUST START TAKING BETTER CARE OF ME, AND I AM OVER DUE FOR THAT ONE.  I FOUND OUT THAT MY HEALTH INS. WILL PAY UP TO $500. DOLLARS OF MY DENTAL BILLS, SO I SENT THEM ALL THEY REQUESTED, AND HOPE I WILL GET REIMBURSED FOR MY LATEST EXPENSES.  I'M NOT SURE SINCE I DID NOT GO TO ONE OF "THEIR" DENTIST.  I HAVE TRIED COST DENTAL BEFORE, AND I FEEL LIKE IT IS A TOTAL RIP OFF WHICH I WILL TELL THEM IF THEY CONTEST THE REFUND.  WELL, THAT IS IT FOR ME ON THIS FRIDAY.  VICKIE WILL BE HERE ANY MINUTE AND WE WILL BE OFF TO THE "Y".  I SURE HOPE IT IS SUNNY AND BRIGHT WHERE YOU ARE-IT IS MORE RAIN AGAIN TODAY FOR US.  TILL MONDAY-JUST ME

POURING RAIN AND PRESLEY IS SICK

ANOTHER DAY OF POURING RAIN-STARTED EARLY THIS AM.  LAST NIGHT POOR PRESLEY HAD A BIG PROBLEM WITH HIS ANAL SACKS-ONE BURST, AND THERE WAS BLOOD ALL OVER.  HE WAS WHINING LIKE A LITTLE GIRL (I'M SURE HE WAS IN PAIN), AND THEN HE THREW UP TWICE!!  MEANWHILE, I HAD TAKEN AN OXYCONTIN FOR MY TOOTH ABSCESS PAIN, AND A SLEEPING PILL.  I FELT LIKE I WAS LIVING A NIGHT MARE.  ANY HOW, THE TOOTH IS NOW GONE, BUT THE PAIN AND THE SWELLING REMAIN.  WHAT NOW I WONDER???  I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE DENTIST THIS AM-GLADLY THEY CHANGED MY APPOINTMENT TO 10:30AM, SO MAYBE THE RAIN WILL HAVE STOPPED BY THEN.  I AM STILL TAKING THE ANTIBIOTICS, BUT LAST NIGHT THE PAIN WAS PRETTY SEVERE.  MY MEETING HAS BEEN CHANGED FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS FROM THURS. NIGHT TO FRIDAY NIGHT, SO I CAN STAY INSIDE AND HOPEFULLY DRY AFTER MY DENTIST APPOINTMENT.  WE SHALL SEE.  MY SISTER VICKIE WANTED ME TO FOLLOW HER IN MY CAR TO HER DAUGHTERS HOUSE SOME TIME TODAY, AND I WOULD BE HAPPY TO DO THAT AS LONG AS IT IS NOT STILL RAINING.  MY NEIGHBOR HAS TOLD ME TWICE NOW THAT SHE WOULD LIKE TO ASK ME SOME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY RELIGION.  I TRULY WISH SHE WOULD, AS SHE SEEMS VERY NICE, AND I LOVE NOTHING MORE THAN TALKING ABOUT OUR CREATOR WITH HONEST HEARTED ONES.  I ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT IT IS NOTHING I SAY OR DO, BUT IT IS GOD WHO DRAWS PEOPLE TO HIMSELF.  STILL I COUNT IT SUCH A PRIVILEGE TO ANSWER QUESTIONS FROM THE BIBLE AND NOT SOMETHING I THOUGHT UP ON MY OWN. BOTH MY DOGIES ARE RIGHT NEXT TO ME-THEY ARE LIKE THAT A LOT LATELY.  I KNOW PRISKA REALLY HATES RAIN STORMS, BUT I THINK PRESLEY IS JUST A LITTLE SCARED FROM LAST NIGHT.  BTW, THE SON OF MY DENTIST IS NO WHERE NEAR AS GOOD AT HIS PROFESSION AS HIS DAD.  I NEVER FELT IT WHEN THE FATHER GAVE ME THOSE INJECTIONS, BUT I FELT EVERY ONE THE SON GAVE ME.  ALSO I COULD FEEL A LOT WHEN HE REMOVED MY TOOTH-SO MUCH SO THAT I ALMOST TOLD HIM TO FORGET IT-I WOULD JUST KEEP THE TOOTH.  ANY HOW IT IS OUT, AND I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT IT IS, BUT I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THE SWELLING AND PAIN ARE STILL HERE.  MAYBE HE CAN TELL ME TODAY WHEN I GO BACK.  WELL, I DO NEED TO GET DRESSED AND EAT A LITTLE SOMETHING, SO TILL TOMORROW-HOPE THE SUN IS SHINING WHERE YOU ARE-JUST ME

" ALZHEIMER'S - BIG TIME " !! (FROM 3/12)

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THIS ONE JUMPED TO FIRST PLACE, BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT IT WAS FROM 3/12. I WILL TRY AND FIGURE OUT HOW TO MOVE IT BACK WHEN I GET BACK HOME.

MIKE CAN COME UP WITH SOME OF THE FUNNIEST THINGS LATELY.  I GUESS I NEED MORE EVIDENCE THAT HE REALLY DOES SUFFER FROM ALZHEIMER'S, SO HE IS MAKING SURE I HAVE PLENTY!!!  YESTERDAY WE WERE TALKING ABOUT FONDA (OUR YOUNGEST DAUGHTER) WHO SAID SHE WOULD BE OVER AROUND 5:30PM.  IT WAS ALMOST 6PM, AND STILL NO FONDA, SO MIKE WANTED ME TO CALL HER AND SEE IF SHE WAS STILL COMING OVER.  I TOLD HIM THERE WAS NO NEED TO PHONE HER, AS SHE IS ALWAYS LATE.  I SAID SHE WAS EVEN LATE IN COMING WHEN SHE WAS DUE.  SO MIKE SAID, "DUE FOR WHAT"??  THEN I EXPLAINED THAT SHE WAS ORIGINALLY DUE TO BE BORN ON JULY 30TH, BUT SHE WAS LATE.  SO MIKE ASKS "WHEN DID SHE COME, ON JULY 31ST"?  I SAID NO, SHE WAS LATER THAN THAT, SO HE THEN STARTS GUESSING JULY 32nd, JULY 33rd, ALL THE WAY TO JULY 35th BEFORE I TOLD HIM SHE WAS ACTUALLY BORN IN AUG., AUG. THE 23rd.  AS IF THAT WERE NOT STRANGE ENOUGH, HE THEN ASKED ME IF WE HAVE EVER BEEN TO FONDA'S HOUSE!!!  I'M TRYING NOT TO ACT FLABBERGASTED, AND JUST SAY YES-WE HAVE BEEN THERE MANY TIMES BEFORE.  THEN HE WANTS TO KNOW WHAT HER HOUSE LOOKS LIKE.  HE SAYS IS IT LIKE OUR INSIDE?  I (STILL FLABBERGASTED) SAID "PRETTY MUCH". AND LEFT IT AT  THAT.
ON AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT NOTE, THIS MORNING MIKE WAKES ME OUT OF A DEEP SLEEP BY POKING ME IN THE STOMACH.  HE THEN ASKS ME IF I AM AWAKE.  I TOLD HIM NOW I AM-WHAT'S THE MATTER??  HE SAID THE DOGS ARE STARVING TO DEATH, AND THEY NEED ME TO WAKE UP AND FEED THEM RIGHT NOW..  SO I GUESS I AM NOT ONLY AT MIKES BECKON CALL, BUT ALSO AT MY DOGS!!!  YOU WOULD THINK THAT ONCE YOU REACH THE RIPE OLE AGE OF 65 (I'LL BE THERE NEXT MONTH), YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO SLEEP IN ONCE IN A WHILE-APPARENTLY NOT IF YOU HAVE DOGS, OR ARE MARRIED TO A MAN NAMED MIKE.  THAT'S ALL I'VE GOT FOR NOW-HOPE YOU HAVE A REMARKABLE DAY-JUST ME

MY OWIE WON'T GO AWAY!!

I HAVE BEEN ON ANTIBIOTICS SINCE SUNDAY NIGHT, AND I STILL HAVE A LUMP ON MY CHIN WHICH IS RED ON THE OUTSIDE AND VERY SORE TO THE TOUCH.  I WILL HAVE TO CONTINUE THIS LATER, AS I HAVE EXERCISE CLASS NOW, THEN I WILL SEE IF DR. HEIDRICH CAN LANCE MY ABSCESS OR THINK OF WHAT ELSE CAN BE DONE TO EASE THE PAIN AND SPEED UP MY ROOT CANAL.  ANY HOW, THIS WILL BE CONT. AFTER I SPEAK OR SEE HIM.  TILL A LITTLE LATER-JUST ME 
WENT TO THE DENTIST, SAID I HAD TO COME BACK AT 11AM. SO I DID MY EXERCISING FIRST WITH MY SISTER VICKIE, WENT TO THE STORE, AND NOW AM GETTING READY TO GO BACK AND SEE WHAT THEY CAN DO FOR ME.  I AM SWOLLEN AND IN PAIN.  I WILL WRITE MORE AGAIN WHEN I GET BACK FOR THE SECOND TIME TODAY......
I'M BACK HOME AGAIN!!
THIS TIME THE DENTIST PULLED MY TOOTH.  THEY SAID IT WAS TOO LOOSE TO TAKE A CHANCE ON BY DOING THE ROOT CANAL.  I'M DEPRESSED AND UPSET, BUT SUCH IS LIFE.  I WILL E MORE TOMORROW-I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND TAKE A PAIN PILL.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST TOOTHLESS ME

I STILL HAVE AN OWIE!!

I STILL HAVE A BIG LIP, AND A CROOKED SMILE FROM THIS STUPID ABSCESSED TOOTH.  I THOUGHT BY THIS MORNING IT WOULD BE GONE, BUT I GUESS IT IS NOT QUITE READY TO LEAVE JUST YET.  I EVEN GOT UP FOR MY 3:30AM PILL, JUST TO HELP IT ALONG, BUT I GUESS IT COULD NOT TAKE EITHER THE HINT OR THE HIKE!!  I HAVE A COUPLE THINGS GOING ON THIS AM.. I HAVE THE INS. LADY (KATE) COMING BY TO FIX MY POLICY SO THAT WHEN I PASS-EACH ONE OF OUR CHILDREN GET 1/3 OF NOT MUCH AFTER THEY PAY FOR MY CREMATION.  I WONDER IF I SHOULD TAKE CARE OF THAT NOW-BUT I THINK IT MIGHT BE TOO SOON AFTER WE ALL JUST DEALT WITH SUCH A MAJOR TRAGEDY IN OUR LIVES.  ANY HOW, I HAVE A TRIP TO CA. COMING UP THAT I AM VERY EXCITED ABOUT.  THOSE GIRLS OF MIKE & LAURA ARE GROWING IN LEAPS AND BOUNDS, AND I NEED TO GET SOME GRANDMA LOVING BEFORE THEY GET TOO BIG FOR ALL THOSE KISSES.  YESTERDAY WAS SUCH A LAZY DAY FOR ME.  I JUST TOOK PILLS AND RESTED UNTIL IT WAS TIME FOR MY NEXT PILLS.  I DID GO AND WORK OUT WITH MY SISTER VICKIE AFTER MY DENTIST VISIT, AND THEN WE WENT TO COSTCO, AND TO ALDI'S FOR A FEW THINGS.  I MADE US AN AVOCADO SANDWICH ON CUBAN BREAD FOR LUNCH, AND THAT WAS YUMMY, BUT I HAD TO CUT IT UP TO EAT IT.  WELL, I HAVE FED MY DOGIES, AND THEY ARE SO SPOILED.  I HATE LEAVING THEM, BUT CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW I CAN TAKE THEM WITH ME.  THEY ARE SO CLOSE TO ME RIGHT NOW-SINCE MIKE PASSED.  THEY HARDLY LET ME OUT OF THEIR SIGHT.  I DO FEEL BAD FOR THEM, BUT PEOPLE MUST COME BEFORE ANIMALS, (EVEN IF THEY SEEM ALMOST HUMAN).  I THINK THE TRIP WILL BE REALLY GOOD FOR CANYON TOO, AS HE WILL BE GOING WITH ME.  HE HAS GOTTEN SO TALL AND HAS GROWN UP SO FAST.  WE FEEL SOMETIMES WHEN THEY ARE YOUNG THAT THEY WILL NEVER GROW UP, THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THEY ARE AND THEY HAVE CHILDREN OF THEIR OWN.  I HAVE LOVED BEING A MOM, AND ALSO A GRAND MA, I AM SO EXCITED TO ALSO BE A GREAT GRAND MA (NANA)!!  LIFE THOUGHT VERY HARD AT TIMES AND SAD, ALWAYS HAS SURPRISES AROUND THE CORNER IF WE JUST HANG IN THERE.  TILL TOMORROW, I HAVE TO GET DRESSED NOW.  I HAVE BEEN WATCHING TWO RED CARDINALS SITTING ON MY BACK SCREEN DOOR AS I WROTE THIS. THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY  BEAUTIFUL. JUST ME

BIG FAT LIP!!

NO, NO ONE HIT ME-IT IS FROM AN ABSCESSED TOOTH!!  IT WAS THROBBING ME SO BAD LAST NIGHT THAT I WENT THROUGH THE GARBAGE TO FIND A STARTER PACK THAT I HAD OF ANTIBIOTICS.  THE FIRST DAYS WORTH.  I TOOK THEM ABOUT 1:30 OR 2AM WHEN MY CHIN AND LIP WERE NUMB, BUT MY HEAD WAS POUNDING.  I ACTUALLY THOUGHT I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT TILL THE MORNING, SO I DECIDED EVEN IF THE STARTER PACK WAS OUT DATED IT WAS BETTER THAN NOTHING.  ANY HOW IT IS MORNING NOW, AND I WILL BE GOING TO THE DENTIST ANY MINUTE NOW.  I FEEL SURE HE WILL FIT ME IN, AS HE ALREADY WORKED ON THIS TOOTH ONCE BEFORE AND KNOWS IT WAS IFFY IF IT COULD BE SAVED OR NOT.  I HAVE TO CUT THIS SHORT, SO I CAN GET DRESSED, FEED THE DOGIES, AND GET TO THE DENTIST.  I WILL WRITE MORE LATER WHEN I GET BACK HOME!!  JUST ME
I'M BACK HOME NOW, AND I HAVE BEEN PUT ON SOME ANTIBIOTICS.  IT LOOKS LIKE THEY WILL DO THE ROOT CANAL ON NEXT MONDAY-OH  BOY!!  CAN'T WAIT!!  NOT!!!
I HAVE NEVER LIKED GOING TO THE DENTIST, BUT WITH MY TEETH, IT IS A MUST.  ANY HOW, I JUST TOOK SOMETHING FOR THE PAIN-HOPE IT KICKS IN SOON.  I WENT TO THE CPR CLASS YESTERDAY WITH MY SISTER, BUT MY TOOTH WAS HURTING SO BAD THAT WE COULD NOT STAY.  I REALLY FELT BADLY ABOUT THAT, BUT IT WAS NOT MY CHOICE.  I WISH I HAD BEEN BLESSED WITH A GREAT SET OF TEETH, BUT THAT WAS NOT WHAT I GOT STUCK WITH.  I SHOULD NOT COMPLAIN-IT COULD BE SO MUCH WORSE.  WE ALWAYS FEEL SORRY FOR OURSELVES UNTIL WE SEE OR LISTEN TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO REALLY HAS A PROBLEM!!  THEN WE GO RIGHT FROM FEELING SORRY FOR OUR SELVES TO FEELING ASHAMED OF OURSELVES!!  ANY HOW, I WILL TRY AND TAKE A LITTLE NAP, AS I DID NOT GET MUCH SLEEP LAST NIGHT.  I WILL TRY AND DO BETTER TOMORROW.  HOPE YOUR DAY WILL BE PAINLESS-JUST ME

WHAT A SHOCKER-THE COST OF AIR FARES!!

WOW!!  IT HAS BEEN LITTLE MORE THAN A YEAR SINCE I LAST TRAVELED, AND THE PRICE OF TICKETS HAS NEARLY DOUBLED!!  I HAVE USED EVERY TRICK IN THE BOOK (I USE TO BE A TRAVEL AGENT), TO LOWER THE FARES, BUT IT WAS TO NO AVAIL.  ALMOST $900. DOLLARS FOR TWO.  WHEN MIKE AND I LAST WENT TO CA. IT WAS LESS THAN $500. FOR BOTH OF US!!  ANY HOW THAT IS WHAT I WILL BE DOING TODAY AFTER MY EXERCISE CLASS.  LOOKING AT MORE AIR FARES.  I DID HAVE A REALLY PLEASANT END YESTERDAY TO WHAT STARTED OUT VERY POORLY AND SADLY.  I HAD MY MEETING AND WE ARE SPLITTING UP BECAUSE OUR TERRITORY IS TOO BIG FOR US TO COVER WELL.  SO WE SAID GOOD BYE TO SEVERAL DEAR FRIENDS-AT LEAST FOR A WHILE.  WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN AT ALL THE ASSEMBLIES AND CONVENTIONS, BUT IT WILL SEEM STRANGE AT MEETINGS FOR A WHILE NOT SEEING THEIR BEAMING FACES.  WE WILL BE HAVING A GOING AWAY PARTY ON SAT. THE 16TH, AND THAT WILL GIVE US ANOTHER CHANCE TO SEE SOME OF OUR DEAR FRIENDS.  WELL I SLEPT WELL LAST NIGHT, AND AM FEELING OK THIS AM.  I WAS STILL A LITTLE OFF YESTERDAY NOT SURE WHY.  I THINK I MIGHT BE TAKING IN TOO MUCH SALT AND IT IS AFFECTING MY MENIER'S.  I WILL HAVE TO BE MORE CAREFUL AND WATCH WHAT I EAT.  I NEED TO GET BETTER AT DOING THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE.  I JUST LACK ANY MOTIVATION THESE DAYS AND DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING..  I SEEM TO DO THE BARE MINIMUM, AND THAT IS IT.  I DON'T EVEN WANT TO COOK FOR MYSELF THESE DAYS, SO I WILL EAT A FROZEN MEAL OR SOME LEFT OVERS MY SISTER VICKIE GIVES ME.  I LOVE DAYS WHEN WE GET TOGETHER, AND MAKE A MEAL.  I WILL USUALLY MAKE THE SALAD AND A VEGGIE, AND VICKIE WILL DO THE REST.  THAT'S SO MUCH BETTER TO ME THAN EATING ALONE.  I HAVE A FRIEND THAT I HAVE KNOW SINCE SHE WAS 16, AND SHE NEVER MARRIED.  I NEVER REALLY KNEW HOW SHE FELT WHEN SHE USE TO SAY SHE HATED TO EAT ALONE, BUT NOW I UNDERSTAND.  WELL, I NEED TO GET READY FOR MY EXERCISE CLASS-MY SISTER ALREADY CALLED AND IS WAITING FOR ME.  I HOPE YOUR WEEK END WILL BRING LOTS OF SMILES-TILL MONDAY-JUST ME