TODAY'S THE DAY !!

TODAY I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH MIKE'S UROLOGIST.  IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE MIKE'S APPOINTMENT, BUT I WILL BE GOING WITH OUT MIKE. I AM PRETTY UPSET THAT THEY NEVER CALLED ME BACK WITH THE RESULTS OF HIS C T SCAN.  MIKE DOES NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE APPOINTMENT.  HE IS STILL SLEEPING, AND I WISH I WERE, BUT MY DOGIES ARE BACK HOME, AND NEEDED TO GO OUTSIDE.  AT NIGHT NOW, WE KEEP THE KITCHEN DOOR TO THE OUTSIDE SHUT, SO THEY HAVE TO WAIT TILL ONE OF US GETS UP TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT SIDE.  I WORKED ON MY TWO DOGS YESTERDAY FOR WHAT SEEMED LIKE HOURS TO COMPLETELY DE TICK THEM.  THEY ARE NOW SHAVED TO THE BARE SKIN, AND ARE SO HAPPY TO BE TICK FREE THAT THEY SLEPT MOST OF THE AFTERNOON, AND ALL OF THE NIGHT.  I HAD NO IDEA THEY HAD SO MANY (POOR THINGS) UNTIL THEIR HAIR WAS ALL CUT OFF.  I DO NEED TO CALL MASSEY TODAY AND SCHEDULE ANOTHER APPOINTMENT, AS I SAW (AND KILLED) QUITE A FEW LIVE ONES YESTERDAY AND LAST NIGHT.  MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY PUT DOWN  THAT IS BRINGING THEM OUT, BUT STILL,  I DO NOT LIKE IT!!  ON A DIFFERENT NOTE, OUR KIND YOUNG DAUGHTER HAD FOOD DELIVERED FOR US LAST NIGHT SO THAT I WOULD NOT HAVE TO COOK AFTER A PRETTY ROUGH DAY.  THAT WAS JUST SO KIND, AND MUCH APPRECIATED.  OH, DID I MENTION THAT MIKE WROTE ALL OVER MY BACK RIGHT AFTER I HAD JUST TAKEN A BATH?  I THOUGHT HE WAS SCRATCHING MY BACK BUT I FELT SOMETHING SHARP, SO I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS WRITING ON MY BACK.  HE SAID "YES".  I SAID WITH INK???? AGAIN MIKE SAID "YES".  I ASKED HIM WHY.  HE SAID SO I WOULD HAVE IT FOR LIFE.  I GUESS HE THOUGHT HE WAS GIVING ME A TATTOO THAT SAID "I LOVE YOU".  TOO CUTE!!  WELL, TIME TO GET A START ON MY DAY-TELL ALL THOSE YOU LOVE WITH WORDS-INK IS SO HARD TO GET OFF!!  JUST ME

FEELING NOT SO GOOD-DAY TWO

TODAY MIKE HAD A DENTAL APPOINTMENT THAT I HAD TO RESCHEDULE, AS HE DECIDED HE NEEDED TO GO BACK TO BED AFTER BREAKFAST.  THIS IS DAY TWO OF THE "NOT FEELING SO GOOD" FOR MIKE.  IT IS ALSO VERY UNUSUAL THAT HE WOULD WANT TO GO BACK TO BED SO SOON AFTER BREAKFAST.  THIS IS NOT LIKE HIM, AND HE CAN'T SEEM TO EXPLAIN WHAT HE IS FEELING.  THAT IS TRULY THE WORST PART OF HAVING ALZHEIMER'S.  IT IS MUCH LIKE HAVING A SMALL CHILD IN THAT THEY CAN NOT TELL YOU WHAT IS HURTING.  I TRY GUESSING AND ALL HE CAN SAY IS "I'M NOT SURE".  ANY HOW, I DO HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH HIS UROLOGIST FOR TOMORROW, AND I WILL BE GOING EITHER ALONE OR WITH MY DAUGHTER OR SON IN LAW.  THE DOCTOR HAS NEVER CALLED ME BACK TO EXPLAIN WHAT THEY FOUND ON THE  C T SCAN, AND I WILL NOT BE BLIND SIDED BY TAKING MIKE IN ONLY TO GET A BAD REPORT.  I HAVE ALREADY EXPLAINED TO THE DOCTOR THAT I HAVE A POWER OF ATTORNEY FOR MICHAEL, AND THAT GIVEN HIS FAILING CONDITION WITH ALZHEIMER'S, I WILL NOT ADD TO THAT WITH A NEGATIVE REPORT ON HIS SCAN.  ON A BRIGHTER NOTE, I DO FEEL THAT WE ARE FINALLY MAKING HEADWAY AGAINST THE TICK PROBLEM.  ONLY FOUND ONE LIVE ONE SINCE MASSEY SPRAYED OR DID WHAT EVER TREATMENT THEY DID YESTERDAY-YIPPEE!!!  WELL, I NEED TO GO CHECK ON MIKE, AND STUDY FOR MY MEETING TONIGHT, AS I DID NOT GET TO DO THAT ON MY REGULAR DAY (TUES.).  HAPPIER DAYS ARE AHEAD FOR ALL OF US  I AM SURE, SO I WILL HANG IN THERE, AND YOU DO THE SAME!!  JUST ME

NO NEWS MAY NOT BE "GOOD NEWS"

YESTERDAY I TRIED SEVERAL TIMES AGAIN TO GET THE RESULTS OF MIKE'S C T SCAN, TO NO AVAIL.  HIS UROLOGIST HAD HIS NURSE CALL ME BACK TO SCHEDULE AN APPOINTMENT.  I EXPLAINED TO HER THAT I NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT THE C T SCAN SAID, AS IF IT IS CANCER I DO NOT WISH FOR HIM TO KNOW ABOUT IT.  SHE SAID SHE WOULD DISCUSS THAT WITH THE DR. AND CALL ME BACK.  SO FAR NO CALL.  I PLAN TO KEEP MY APT. WITH THEM ON FRI. BUT I WILL GO WITH OUT MIKE.  HE HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH AND IS GOING THROUGH ENOUGH WITH OUT ADDING TO HIS BURDEN.  ON A SEPARATE NOTE. I HAVE MASSEY PEST CONTROL HERE THIS AM, AND MIKE IS BACK IN BED AS HE IS NOT FEELING WELL FOR SOME REASON.  WE WILL HAVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE SOON, SO WE WILL GO TO MY SISTER'S ACROSS THE STREET, AND MIKE CAN REST SOME MORE THERE. WE HAD TO GET THE DOGS OUT OF THE HOUSE AS WELL, AND IF ANY ONE NEEDS A DOG SITTER WHO WILL COME PICK UP YOUR PET AND THEN RETURN THEM WHEN YOU WANT LET ME KNOW. I AM SO GLAD TO HAVE FOUND HER!! WELL, I JUST GOT THE WORD THAT WE NEED TO LEAVE NOW, SO TILL LATER-HOPE ALL YOUR NEWS IS GOOD!!  JUST ME

STILL NO NEWS ON MIKE'S CT SCAN

I HAVE CALLED SEVERAL TIMES TO SEE IF I COULD GET THE RESULTS, BUT  THEY TOLD ME TODAY THAT THE DOCTOR HAS BEEN OUT OF TOWN SO THAT IS WHY THEY COULD NOT GIVE ME THE REPORT.  HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE IT TODAY OR TOMORROW AT THE LATEST.  WELL, WE HAVE WAVED THE WHITE FLAG TO ALL THE LITTLE TICKS, AND HAVE ALLOWED (THANKFULLY) OUR KIDS TO GET MASSEY PEST CONTROL ON THE JOB.  MAYBE NOW WE WILL FINALLY GET RID OF THOSE LITTLE BLOOD SUCKERS!!!  ALSO MASSEY WILL BE POSTING A SIGN ABOUT THE ALZHEIMER'S WALK THE MORNING OF OCT. 22,2011 AT LAKE EOLA.  WE ARE SELLING RAFFLE TICKETS FOR A BASKET WORTH MORE THAN $ 3,453. FOR ONLY $20. EACH.  IF YOU ARE INTERESTED YOU CAN CALL VICKIE BONELLI AT 407 657-5703 OR YOU CAN e-mail ME AT hayesnet17@gmail.com.  WELL, NOW WE WILL HAVE TO GET BOTH OUR DOGS SHAVED AND DIPPED SO THAT THEY WILL ALSO FINALLY HAVE SOME RELIEF.  WHAT A HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE THESE TICKS HAVE BEEN!!!  ON A DIFFERENT NOTE, YESTERDAY I WENT TO THE DERMATOLOGIST, AND THEY CUT OUT THAT MOLE OR WHAT EVER IT WAS ON THE BACK OF MY NECK, AND ARE SENDING TO THE LAB TO SEE IF IT IS ANY THING I NEED TO BE WORRIED ABOUT.  THEN WHEN I GOT HOME, I DECIDED TO CUT OFF ALL MY SKIN TAGS (5 OF THEM).  NOW MY NECK IS MOLE AND TAG FREE!! OK, GOT TO GO-TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

MY WORST NIGHTMARE !!

LAST NIGHT I WOKE MIKE UP WITH MY SOBBING!!  ALL I COULD SAY IS I'M OK-JUST HAD A BAD DREAM.  THE TRUTH IS, I HAD THE WORST POSSIBLE DREAM EVER!!  I DREAMT THAT MIKE FORGOT WHO I WAS.  HE WAS LOOKING AT A DRESS, AND HE TOLD ME THAT HE HAD ASKED HIS WIFE TO PUT IT AWAY, BUT HE THINKS SHE WILL DO THAT ON THURS. WHEN SHE COMES BACK.   I QUESTIONED HIM A LITTLE (THIS WAS DONE IN MY DREAM), JUST TO SEE IF HE WAS PUTTING ME ON, AS MIKE HAS ALWAYS HAD SUCH A GREAT SENSE OF HUMOR.  BUT NO-HE WAS DEAD SERIOUS, AND CONTINUED TO REFER TO HIS WIFE AS NOT BEING PRESENT, AND NOT BEING ME!!  I FREAKED OUT (AGAIN THIS WAS IN MY DREAM), AND I CALLED MY SISTER VICKIE.  I TOLD HER IT HAPPENED-HE FORGOT WHO I AM.  AND THEN I STARTED SOBBING.  SHE TRIED AND TRIED TO TELL ME THINGS TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER, BUT NOTHING SHE SAID DID, AND I JUST KEPT SOBBING-UNTIL I WOKE MIKE UP.  I WAS SO RELIEVED TO KNOW AT THAT MOMENT THAT IT WAS JUST A HORRIBLE DREAM, WORDS CAN NOT EXPRESS.  ANY HOW, THIS IS NOW MORNING, AND I HAVE A DERMATOLOGY APPOINTMENT TO REMOVE WHAT EVER THAT THING IS ON MY NECK, SO I NEED TO GET DRESSED AND GET GOING.  I JUST HOPE AND PRAY THAT MY DREAM/NIGHTMARE WILL NEVER ACTUALLY HAPPEN, AS I TRULY DON'T KNOW IF I COULD HANDLE THAT.  HOPE ALL YOUR DREAMS ARE GOOD ONES-TILL LATER-JUST ME

TWO TEETH PULLED DAYMARE

I COULD NOT SAY "NIGHTMARE", AS IT HAPPENED YESTERDAY AFTERNOON!!  MIKE HAD TWO TEETH PULLED OUT-ACTUALLY THEY WERE TWO BROKEN OFF AT THE GUM LINE ROOTS REMOVED.  IT WAS A LONG PROCESS, BUT MIKE DID VERY WELL, AND LIKED THE DENTIST.  WE WERE THERE FROM 1PM UNTIL 4PM.  ENOUGH SAID.  THE REST OF THE DAY/NIGHT WAS A LOT OF FUN AS WELL.  I COULD NOT GET MIKE TO KEEP THE GAUZE IN HIS MOUTH-EVERY TIME I TURNED AROUND HE HAD IT BACK IN HIS HAND.   THEN HE WANTED A PAIN PILL WHILE HE WAS IN HIS RECLINER-HUGE MISTAKE!!  I PRACTICALLY HAD TO CARRY HIM TO BED, AS IT KNOCKED HIM OUT.   HIS FEET WOULD GO ABOUT ONE INCH AT A TIME, AND HE KEPT BENDING OVER MORE AND MORE WITH EACH STEP.  THANKFULLY I DID GET HIM INTO BED, AND THIS AM HE SEEMS ALMOST BACK TO NORMAL.  HE JUST GOT BACK FROM WALKING THE DOGS, SO THAT IS A GOOD SIGN.  I WASN'T SURE IF HE WOULD BE UP TO DOING THAT THIS AM..   ON A DIFFERENT NOTE, TODAY IS SUPPOSE TO BE THE LAST TREATMENT FOR THE TICKS.  THE YARD, HOUSE, AND POOR DOGS .  I HAVE MUCH TO DO BEFORE THAT, AS I NEED TO VACUUM AND MOP THE FLOORS FIRST.  THIS HAS BEEN AN ORDEAL I WILL NOT SOON BE FORGETTING!!  I HAVE NOT GOTTEN THE RESULTS BACK YET FROM MY BLOOD WORK YESTERDAY, BUT HOPEFULLY IT WILL BE OK.  I HAVE 8 MORE DAYS ON ANTIBIOTICS-MAYBE BY THEN MY WORLD WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL-AT LEAST NORMAL FOR ME!!  WELL I NEED TO EAT SOMETHING AND THEN GET STARTED ON MY DAY, SO MAY YOURS BE TICK AND TROUBLE FREE-JUST ME

NOW I'M ON ANTIBIOTICS !!

MIKE HAD HIS CT SCAN YESTERDAY AFTER DRINKING TWO BOTTLES OF YUCK!!  POOR GUY-AFTER HIS SCAN THEY GAVE HIM A RETURN VISIT APPOINTMENT, AND MIKE SAID "ARE THEY GOING TO HAVE TO DO THE TEST AGAIN??  I ASSURED HIM THAT THE APPOINTMENT WAS TO GET THE RESULTS, AND TODAY WAS THE LAST TEST HE WOULD HAVE TO TAKE FOR A LONG WHILE.  HE WAS VERY HAPPY TO HEAR THAT.  THEN I HAD A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT IN THE AFTERNOON.  I HAVE A STRANGE NEW MOLE LIKE OBJECT ON THE BASE OF MY NECK, ALSO NOT FEELING WELL.  THEY TOOK MY BLOOD TO CHECK ON THE LEUKEMIA THING, REFERRED ME TO A DERMATOLOGIST, AND PUT ME ON SOME ANTIBIOTICS.  IT'S BARELY 9AM, AND I AM READY TO GO BACK TO BED, BUT CAN NOT.  MIKE HAS AN APPOINTMENT TODAY TO GET ONE OF HIS BROKEN TEETH EXTRACTED.  I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW HIS TEETH GOT INTO SUCH BAD REPAIR.  I GUESS HE JUST DID NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT THEM, AND I DIDN'T NOTICE.  I TOLD HIM YESTERDAY THAT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OUR MARRIED LIVES, HIS TEETH ARE IN WORSE SHAPE THAN MINE!!  WELL, LIKE IT OR NOW, I MUST GET A MOVE ON, SO HOPE YOUR DAY WILL BE DOCTOR FREE!!  JUST ME

TOO MUCH TO DO TODAY !!

MIKE IS STILL SLEEPING, BUT I NEED TO WAKE HIM SOON, AS HE NEEDS TO START DRINKING THAT CONTRAST LIQUID AT 8:40AM.  HE HAD A GOOD NIGHTS SLEEP, AND I DID OK, BUT AM PRETTY WORRIED ABOUT THE WEATHER TODAY.  IT ALREADY LOOKS LIKE RAIN, AND I NEED TO TAKE MIKE ALL THE WAY ACROSS TOWN FOR HIS C T SCAN AT 11:00AM.  I'M SURE SOME HOW I WILL GET US THERE-I AM JUST CONCERNED ABOUT THE RAIN, AND MY MINERE'S.  ALSO, WE PLAN TO VACUUM THE HOUSE FROM STEM TO STERN WHEN WE GET BACK HOME, AND THEN MOP ALL THE FLOORS.  WE HAVE ONE MORE SPRAYING TO DO, AND THEN PRAYERFULLY THE LITTLE VARMINTS WILL BE ALL GONE!!  I HAVE DEALT WITH MANY THINGS IN MY LIFETIME, BUT NONE SO TRYING AS THE TICKS.  THEY DRAIN ME MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY, AND ON TOP OF THAT THEY DISGUST ME!!    WELL I MUST KEEP THIS SHORT TODAY, AS I HAVE ALREADY STARTED ON MAKING MIKE SOME BACON AND PANCAKES BEFORE HE HAS TO START DRINKING THAT YUCKY STUFF.  I HOPE AND PRAY THIS WILL BE THE LAST TEST HE HAS TO TAKE FOR A LONG LONG WHILE.  I WILL KEEP YOU ALL POSTED AS SOON AS WE KNOW ANY THING CERTAIN.  REMEMBER TO GIVE THANKS FOR THIS DAY-JUST ME

NOT THE LOTTO THING AGAIN !!

THAT'S HOW THE DAY STARTED OUT FOR ME.  MIKE WANTED ME TO EXPLAIN ONCE AGAIN HOW HE COULD HAVE THE LOTTO NUMBERS ON BOTH THE CARD AND THE TICKET AND STILL NOT BE A WINNER.  AFTER SPENDING CONSIDERABLE TIME ON THAT AND IT WAS STILL NOT CLEAR TO HIM, WE HAD TO LEAVE FOR HIS DENTAL APPOINTMENT-THANKFULLY!!  ON THE WAY THERE, I PICKED UP  THE CONTRAST LIQUID FROM HIS UROLOGIST WHICH OPENED UP A WHOLE OTHER BATCH OF QUESTIONS.  HOPEFULLY I ANSWERED THEM TO MIKE'S SATISFACTION, AS HE SOON WAS ON TO ANOTHER SUBJECT.  MIKE INFORMED ME YESTERDAY THAT FOOTBALL IS TOO CONFUSING FOR HIM NOW.  HE SAID THEY ARE DOING TOO MANY THINGS TOO FAST.  THAT DOES NOT MAKE ME HAPPY, AS THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE ONE  THING I COULD COUNT ON TO KEEP MIKE ENTERTAINED OVER THE WEEK END, AND WHEN EVER HE WAS FINISHED WORKING IN THE YARD.  EVEN THAT HAS BEEN SLOWLY DROPPING OFF, AS HE IS NOT SPENDING NEARLY AS MUCH TIME IN THE YARD AS HE ONCE DID.  IT IS GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO FIND THINGS THAT INTEREST HIM.  WE DID HAVE A NICE BIBLE DISCUSSION THIS AFTERNOON.  HE WANTED TO KNOW IF I WAS EVER A REGISTERED VOTER.  I THINK HE ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD THE SCRIPTURES I SHOWED HIM, WHICH IS ONE OF THE FEW UPSIDES TO HIS HAVING ALZHEIMER'S.  HE SEEMS TO HAVE MUCH MORE SPIRITUAL INTEREST THAN EVER BEFORE.  BTW, I AM STILL BATTLING THE TICK INFESTATION-AND I'M ABOUT READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL!!  MY DAUGHTER FONDA GOT ME SOMETHING (LIKE A POWDER) THAT IS ALL NATURAL, WHICH I PUT ON ALL MY CARPETS, ALL OVER MY BED,  AND BOTH MY DOGS TODAY. I AM ONLY SUPPOSE TO HAVE ONE MORE TREATMENT (OF SPRAYING THE YARD, AND HOUSE) FOR THEM TO ALL BE GONE.  I AM HOPING AND PRAYING THAT IS THE CASE-IF NOT, I WILL BE MOVING IN WITH SOMEONE TILL THIS PROBLEM IS SOLVED!!  ANY TAKERS???  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

MY FIRST SCARY MOMENT WITH MIKE !!

I GUESS IT WAS NOT REALLY MY FIRST SCARY MOMENT WITH MIKE. OVER THE YEARS THERE HAVE BEEN A FEW, BUT THIS ONE WAS DIFFERENT.  MIKE WAS AT THE DINNING ROOM TABLE SITTING DOWN-SOUND ASLEEP.  I GENTLY TOUCHED HIS SHOULDER TO MAKE SURE HE WAS OK, AND HE ACTED SO STRANGE.  HE LOOKED AROUND THE ROOM WITH A DAZED LOOK IN HIS EYES AND DIDN'T SAY A WORD.  I KEPT ASKING HIM "ARE YOU OK"? HE WOULD JUST NOD HIS HEAD-STILL NOT SPEAKING.  IT KINDA FREAKED ME OUT, BUT AFTER A BIT HE SEEMED TO COME AROUND.  IT WAS LIKE HE WAS TOTALLY CONFUSED, AND DID NOT KNOW WHERE HE WAS FOR THAT SHORT TIME.  I KNOW WITH THIS DISEASE I HAVE TO EXPECT MOMENTS LIKE THIS, AND EVEN WORSE THINGS I DO NOT WISH TO CONTEMPLATE, BUT I WAS JUST NOT EXPECTING TO SEE SOMETHING LIKE THAT SO SOON.   MIKE IS DOING LESS AND LESS IN THE HOUSE AND IN THE YARD.  HE EVEN LET THE YARD MAN CUT THE WHOLE YARD ON THURS..  THE YARD MAN HAD LEFT A BUNCH OF TREE BRANCHES AND DEBRIS IN OUR FRONT YARD THINKING THAT THE YARD WASTE COLLECTORS WOULD PICK IT UP.  WELL THEY DIDN'T, SO TO MAKE UP FOR LEAVING IT ON OUR FRONT LAWN SO LONG, HE SAID TO ASK MIKE IF HE COULD CUT THE FRONT YARD FOR FREE.  I WAS SURPRISED, BUT MIKE SAID "SURE".  HE LET MY SISTER VICKIE CUT IT LAST TIME ON HER RIDING MOWER!!  I THINK HE MUST JUST BE GETTING WEAKER, OR MAY BE GETTING TIRED MORE EASILY.  MAYBE WHEN THE WEATHER COOLS OFF A BIT HE WILL REGAIN SOME OF HIS STRENGTH.  I SURE HOPE SO.  LASTLY, HE LOST ONE OF OUR BILLS, SO I HAD TO SPEND THE BETTER PART OF THE DAY TRYING TO FIND IT.  I FINALLY DID-OF COURSE IT WAS IN ONE OF HIS MANY PILES!!  HOPE YOU WILL HAVE A STRESS LESS DAY-TILL LATER-JUST ME

WE'RE NOT OUT OF THE WOODS YET !!

YESTERDAY WE GOT A CALL FROM MIKE'S UROLOGIST.  THEY FINALLY GOT THE RESULTS FROM HIS "FISH" TEST AND SOME OTHER TEST THEY RAN ON MIKE'S URINE, AND FOUND IT TO BE "SUSPICIOUS OF CANCER CELLS"  WHAT EVER THAT IS SUPPOSE TO MEAN.  WHAT IT BOILS DOWN TO, IS THAT THEY WANT TO DO YET ANOTHER  C T SCAN RIGHT AWAY.  I HAVE NOT MENTIONED THIS NEW DEVELOPMENT TO MIKE, AS HE WAS SO HAPPY TO HEAR HE WAS CLEARED FOR AT LEAST ANOTHER 6 MONTHS.  I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING THAT WILL NOT GET HIM UPSET OR ALARMED, AS IT MAY TURN OUT TO BE NOTHING (I HOPE I HOPE I HOPE)!!  YESTERDAY I ALSO FOUND OUT THAT WE HAD A TICK INFESTATION!!  NOT GOOD NEWS.  I SPENT OVER $100. IN PRODUCTS TO RID THE HOUSE, YARD, AND DOGS OF THOSE LITTLE BLOOD SUCKING MONSTERS!!  I WAS PRETTY UPSET, AS WE SPEND A SMALL FORTUNE EACH MONTH ON GROOMING, ADVANTICS, FLEA & TICK COLLARS AND MORE.  NOT FAIR!!!  ANY HOW, I JUST HOPE ALL THIS STUFF WORKS, AS I AM ABOUT AT MY WITS END.  WELL, TODAY, THANKFULLY, WE DO NOT HAVE ANY DOCTOR'S OR DENTIST APPOINTMENTS.  I CAN JUST RELAX AND ENJOY THE DAY-HOPE YOU CAN TOO.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

WHEN IS OUR ANNIVERSARY ??

MIKE ASKED ME THIS QUESTION YESTERDAY.  I TOLD HIM IT WAS LAST MONTH IN AUGUST.  I SAID WE WENT TO POMPANO BEACH REMEMBER??  HE SAID DID YOU COME WITH ME?  I SAID YES HONEY I WENT, MY SISTER VICKIE WENT, AND BOTH OUR DOGIES WENT.  DO YOU REMEMBER NOW?  NOT REALLY.  THEN HE CHANGES THE SUBJECT.  THE OTHER DAY HE WAS ASKING ABOUT JAKKI, AND THEN OUT OF NO WHERE SAID "WHERE DID SHE COME FROM"?  I REMINDED HIM THAT SHE IS THE DAUGHTER OF FELINA (OUR OLDEST) AND MIKE B.. THEN HE SAID DID THEY HAVE ANY OTHER KIDS?  BUT BEFORE I COULD REMIND HIM ABOUT CANYON, HE SAID OH YES, THEY HAVE  CANYON TOO-RIGHT?  AND THEN HE REALLY SURPRISED ME WITH "DO YOU THINK FELINA WANTS ANY MORE CHILDREN"?  I SAID NO, I DON'T THINK SO, BUT I COULD BE WRONG.  TODAY, WE HAVE A DENTIST APT., BUT THEN WHEN WE GET HOME, I WILL HAVE TO CALL HIS ORTHOPEDIC DOCTOR.  MIKE WAS IN PAIN WITH HIS KNEES ALL NIGHT AGAIN. UP AND DOWN-MOANING AND GROANING.  THEY WILL HAVE TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING FOR HIM AS WE ARE BOTH LOSING LOTS OF SLEEP OVER THIS PROBLEM.  WELL, I NEED TO GET A MOVE ON SO WE WON'T BE LATE FOR HIS APT..  I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE GOOD NEWS WE GOT-I JUST HOPE THEY CAN DO SOMETHING FOR HIS KNEES NOW.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

BOTH KNEES ARE NOW A PROBLEM!!

FIRST IT WAS JUST THE ONE KNEE-THE ONE HE INJURED IN THE TRAIN ACCIDENT IN 1969.  NOW HE IS COMPLAINING OF BOTH KNEES HURTING, SO I GUESS IT IS BACK TO THE ORTHOPEDIC DOCTOR RIGHT AFTER WE FIND OUT THE RESULTS FROM HIS LOOPOGRAM THIS AFTERNOON.  HE TRIES SO HARD TO KEEP ON WORKING AND DOING ALL THE THINGS HE USE TO DO, BUT HE IS SPENDING LESS AND LESS TIME OUTSIDE THESE DAYS.  OUR DEAR FRIEND GAIL WAS OVER YESTERDAY, AND SAW OUR DOLL (MIKE SAID "SHE'S FAMILY") AMANDA.  SHE WAS VERY IMPRESSED WITH HOW MUCH SHE CAN SAY AND GOT TO SEE FIRST HAND WHAT I WAS SAYING ABOUT HOW MIKE PICKS HER UP AND HOLDS HER.  I SOMETIMES THINK HE THINKS SHE IS REAL.  LAST NIGHT BOTH MIKE AND I SLEPT VERY WELL.  WE EACH TOOK A PILL AT BED TIME, AND IT DID THE TRICK-THANKFULLY!!  WELL, IT'S ALMOST TIME FOR LUNCH, AND I AM STILL IN MY P.J.'S, SO I NEED TO GET A MOVE ON.  HOPE YOUR DAY BRINGS MANY BLESSINGS-JUST ME
G R E A T  N E W S !!!!!!!  JUST GOT HOME FROM THE UROLOGIST, AND THEY SAID EVEN THOUGHT THERE IS SOME SWELLING-IT IS NOT UNCOMMON WITH THIS TYPE OF SURGERY, AND HE DOES NOT THINK THAT THE CANCER HAS RETURNED!!!! YIPPEE!!!!  FINALLY-SOME G O O D  N E W S !!!!!!  WE WILL HAVE TO REDO THE C T SCAN AGAIN AND A FEW OTHER TEST IN 6 MONTHS, BUT FOR NOW WE ARE TOTALLY HAPPY!!!!! SEE-PRAYERS DO WORK!!!  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

NOT A WINK OF SLEEP !!

LAST NIGHT MIKE WAS IN RARE FORM.  HE WAS UP AND DOWN ALL NIGHT.  I KEPT TRYING TO FIND OUT IF ANY THING WAS HURTING HIM OR WHY HE WAS NOT ABLE TO SLEEP, BUT HE SAID "I HAVE NO IDEA".  SO THAT MEANS TODAY I WILL BE LIKE A ZOMBIE, AND I HAVE MY MEETING TONIGHT!!  ANY HOW, TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY WHEN WE FIND OUT WHAT THE LOOPOGRAM SAYS.  I AM PRAYING FOR A GOOD REPORT.  MIKE JUST TOOK THE "KIDS" (HIS WORDS) FOR A WALK.  I DO NOT KNOW WHERE THE MAN GETS HIS ENERGY.  I COULD CRAWL BACK INTO BED AND SLEEP ALL DAY, BUT THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN.  MIKE ALSO LOST A FILLING IN ONE OF HIS TEETH, SO WE HAVE AN APPOINTMENT TO GET THAT TAKEN CARE OF ON MONDAY.  THERE IS A SLIGHT POSSIBILITY THAT HIS TOOTH KEPT HIM AWAKE ALL NIGHT, BUT HE DID NOT MENTION IT.  AMANDA IS DOING WELL (OUR TALKING DOLL).  EVERY TIME SHE SAYS "NO HUGS FOR AMANDA"?  MIKE WILL GET UP, GO OVER TO HER, PICK HER UP AND PAT HER ON THE BACK.  IT IS SUCH A STRANGE SITE. WELL, I NEED TO DO SO MANY THINGS THIS AM, I JUST HOPE I CAN GET THE IMPORTANT ONES DONE!!  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME

" LOOPOGRAM IS TODAY "

I THINK MIKE MAY BE A LITTLE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS TEST THIS MORNING.  HE KEEPS ASKING WHAT IS THE TEST FOR, AND WHAT KIND OF TEST IS IT.  TO BE QUITE HONEST, I TOO AM A LITTLE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS TEST.  I AM JUST HOPING AND PRAYING THAT IT WILL NOT BE TOO UNCOMFORTABLE FOR HIM OR THAT THEY WILL GIVE HIM SOME KIND OF A SEDATIVE TO CALM HIM.  MIKE IS STILL HAVING TROUBLE SLEEPING AT NIGHT, BUT IT MAY BE THAT HE FALLS ASLEEP IN HIS CHAIR THROUGH OUT THE DAY.  HE IS NOT NEARLY AS ACTIVE AS HE WAS EVEN A MONTH AGO.  NOW HE IS COMPLAINING ABOUT BACK PAIN AND PAIN IN BOTH LEGS.  HE SAYS HE THINKS THE LEG PROBLEM IS BECAUSE OF HIS KNEE PROBLEM-HE ALSO THINKS THAT IS WHY HIS BACK IS HURTING HIM.  I JUST DON'T SEE HOW YOUR KNEE CAN CAUSE BACK PAIN, BUT I AM NOT A DOCTOR.  I WILL HAVE TO ASK MIKE'S PCP THE NEXT TIME WE SEE HIM.  IT LOOKS LIKE RAIN HERE TODAY-THE WEATHER PEOPLE SAID 60% CHANCE, AND FOR ONCE I THINK THEY MAY HAVE GOTTEN IT RIGHT!!  MIKE IS SO FUNNY-OUR GRAND DAUGHTER JAKKI IS GOING TO HAVE A BABY, AND I TOLD HIM SHE WAS PREGNANT.  NOW HE THINKS THE BABY IS HERE!!  HE WANTS TO KNOW IF SHE HAD A GIRL OR A BOY.  I TRY AND EXPLAIN THAT SHE JUST FOUND OUT SHE IS PREGNANT-THEN HE WANTS TO KNOW WHEN THE BABY WILL BE HERE.  " HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE FOR A BABY TO COME OUT"?  YOU MIGHT THINK AFTER HAVING KIDS HIMSELF HE WOULD KNOW THAT, BUT I HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF-HE'S NO LONGER A GROWN UP-HE THINKS SO MUCH LIKE A CHILD NOW.  EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I GET A GLIMPSE OF THE OLD MIKE, BUT THEN JUST AS QUICKLY-IT IS GONE.  SPEAKING OF GONE, WE MUST BE GOING NOW, SO TILL TOMORROW-PLEASE THINK KIND THOUGHTS OF THOSE AROUND YOU-JUST ME

" WHAT THE HECK IS A LOOPOGRAM "??

MIKE'S FIRST DOCTOR (THE ONE WHO REMOVED HIS BLADDER CANCER) HAS ORDERED A LOOPOGRAM TO MAKE SURE OF WHAT IS GOING ON.  HE SAID IT  WILL GIVE  US A REALLY GOOD IDEA AND ALSO WHAT WE NEED TO DO TO PROCEED.  WELL, I CALLED UDI, CDI, FLORIDA RADIATION, AND DREW MEDICAL, AND NONE OF THEM DO THAT TEST, AND SOME OF THEM NEVER EVEN HEARD OF THAT TEST.  I WILL TRY AND GOOGLE IT LATER TODAY WHEN MIKE IS WALKING THE DOGS, AND SEE IF I CAN FIND OUT MORE ABOUT IT, AND WHO MIGHT DO IT.  OTHER THAN THAT, MIKE SEEMS TO BE DOING OK.  HE DID NOT SLEEP WELL AGAIN LAST NIGHT, WHICH OF COURSE MEANS THAT I DID NOT SLEEP WELL AGAIN LAST NIGHT. MIKE WAS IN ONE OF HIS SCRATCHING MOODS, AND HONESTLY I THINK HE SCRATCHED MY BACK FOR AT LEAST A WHOLE HOUR!!  HE WOULD STOP FOR A WHILE, AND THEN START UP AGAIN.  I THINK HE JUST LIKES THE REASSURANCE THAT I AM THERE IN BED WITH HIM.   I HAVE MUCH TO DO TODAY TRYING TO GET THE RESULTS FROM SOME OF THE TEST THEY HAVE ALREADY DONE ON MIKE.  I AM A BIT OF A NERVOUS WRECK, BUT MIKE SEEMS TO BE HIS CALM USUAL SELF-WITH THE EXCEPTION OF HIS SLEEP HABIT OF SCRATCHING.  HOPEFULLY TONIGHT HE WILL DO BETTER, AND I WILL FEEL MORE LIKE MY OLD SELF TOO.   TIME TO ENJOY THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY, SO TILL TOMORROW-PLEASE ENJOY YOURS!!  JUST ME

" MORE TEST "

I HAD A NICE CONVERSATION LAST NIGHT WITH MIKE'S PREVIOUS UROLOGIST WHO ACTUALLY DID HIS BLADDER SURGERY.  HE WAS VERY NICE, AND CONCERNED, SO HE HAS ORDERED A TEST THAT SHOULD BE MORE CONCLUSIVE AND EXACT-IT IS CALLED A LOOPOGRAM.  ALSO WE SHOULD BE GETTING THE RESULTS SOON ON SOME OF THE OTHER TEST RUN BY HIS CURRENT UROLOGIST.  I AM JUST CONCERNED THAT WE NOT WASTE ANY TIME.  HIS LAST CANCER WAS VERY AGGRESSIVE, THEREFORE, I DO NOT WANT TO WAIT ANY LONGER THAN ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY FOR WHAT EVER OTHER TEST THEY NEED TO RUN.  MIKE STILL THINKS IT IS ONLY AN INFECTION, AND THAT IS WHY HE IS HAVING TO TAKE THE ANTIBIOTICS. I DO LIKE HIS NEW UROLOGIST, BUT I FEEL LIKE DR. COHEN (HIS FIRST), HAS A BETTER HANDLE ON THE WHOLE THING, SINCE HE WAS THE ONE WHO DID THE SURGERY.  IT WAS A LONG 7 AND 1/2 HOUR SURGERY, BUT HE WAS PRETTY SURE HE HAD GOTTEN ALL THE CANCER.  NOW 3 AND 1/2 YEARS LATER, WE MAY BE DEALING WITH ANOTHER SURGERY.  I AM TRYING TO TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME AS THE BIBLE SAYS "EACH DAY HAS IT'S OWN BADNESS".  I AM HOPING THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS, AND MIKE WILL BE AROUND FOR A LONG LONG TIME. HOPE SPRINGS ETERNAL!!  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME