Monday, August 15, 2011

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOUR DADDY DIED??

NOT AGAIN I'M THINKING, SO I DODGE THE QUESTION BY SAYING "I'M NOT SURE HONEY, HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOUR DADDY DIED"??  MIKE SAID, I THINK IT WAS ABOUT 20 YEARS AGO.  IT WAS MUCH MUCH LONGER THAN THAT, AS MIKE WAS JUST A CHILD WHEN HIS DAD DIED, BUT I JUST LET IT GO.  HE HAS NO CONCEPTION OF TIME OR MONEY AT THIS POINT.  HE ASKED ME TODAY "HOW MUCH IS THIS HOUSE WORTH"?  I SAID "I'M SURE IT'S STILL WORTH AT LEAST 175".  MIKE SAID "ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY FIVE DOLLARS"? "NO MIKE, IT'S ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS".  ANOTHER CHANGE WITH MIKE IS THAT HE IS NO LONGER GLUED TO THE T.V. FOR ALL OF THE SPORTS THAT HE USE TO DEARLY LOVE.  I WILL ASK HIM IF HE WANTS ME TO FIND A FOOTBALL GAME FOR HIM, AND HE WILL SAY "JUST SEE WHAT ELSE IS ON". TOTALLY NOT LIKE THE MIKE I MARRIED WHO MADE ME PROMISE TWO THINGS BEFORE HE WOULD MARRY ME.  NUMBER 1 WAS THAT I WOULD NEVER EVER GIVE HIM A HARD TIME FOR WATCHING FOOTBALL, AND NUMBER 2 WAS THAT HE WOULD NEVER HAVE TO SEE ME IN ROLLERS.  I'M GLAD I HAVE LEARNED TO BE FLEXIBLE, AS THIS LIFE I NOW LIVE IS LIKE A ROLLER COASTER RIDE!!!  MIKE SAID TODAY ON OUR WAY HOME FROM OUR MEETING "I'M HAPPY, ARE YOU"?  AND I TOLD HIM "YES, I AM HAPPY TOO"!  HE SAID  "GOOD, WE ARE BOTH HAPPY"! THERE ARE OF COURSE THINGS I WOULD CHANGE, OR WISH WERE DIFFERENT, BUT I AM REALLY THANKFUL THAT MIKE SEEMS TO EITHER BE UNAWARE OF HOW BAD HIS ALZHEIMER'S HAS GOTTEN, OR THAT HE IS OK WITH IT. I THINK HE FEELS SECURE KNOWING  THAT I AM HERE TO TAKE CARE OF WHATEVER NEEDS TAKING CARE OF. SPEAKING OF WHICH, I THINK I HAD BETTER TAKE CARE OF DINNER RIGHT NOW, SO TILL TOMORROW-TRY AND THINK ONLY KIND THOUGHTS & SPEAK ONLY KIND WORDS.  JUST ME

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