" WILL I BE ALRIGHT THEN " ?

MIKE LOOKED SO PALE YESTERDAY FOR SOME REASON.  HE WAS WORKING IN THE YARD AND CAME IN LOOKING WHITE AS A GHOST.  I GOT HIM TO SIT IN HIS CHAIR AND BROUGHT HIM HIS KICKIPOO DRINK (WHAT HE CALLS LEMONADE).  I COULD SEE HE WAS IN SOME PAIN, SO I ASKED HIM IF HE WANTED ME TO RUB HIS LEGS WITH THE CREAM HOSPICE GIVES US FOR HIS PAIN, AND THAT'S WHEN HE SAID THE ABOVE.  SOUNDED JUST LIKE A CHILD TALKING ABOUT SOME BOO BOO AND NEEDING REASSURANCE THAT IT WAS GOING TO BE OK. . HIS HOSPICE NURSE WAS HERE YESTERDAY, AND WAS ALSO CONCERNED ABOUT THE ADDITIONAL WEIGHT LOSS, AND HIS LACK OF HUNGER OR THIRST.  SHE IS STILL CONCERNED ABOUT THE SEDIMENT IN HIS OSTOMY BAG, ALTHOUGH I THINK THE ANTIBIOTICS HAVE STOPPED THE BLOOD.  MIKE IS STILL IN BED, BUT IT IS EARLY-ONLY ABOUT 7:30AM.  I HAVE A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT TODAY, AND A HOSPICE VOLUNTEER WILL BE HERE TO WATCH MIKE FOR ME WHILE I AM GONE.  BTW, MY WONDERFUL SON IN LAW MIKE WILL BE WATCHING MIKE FOR ME TONIGHT (EVEN CHANGED HIS MEETING NIGHT TO TUES.) SO THAT I CAN ONCE AGAIN GET TO MY MEETING ON THURS. NIGHT.  I WILL SEE IF I CAN GET ONE OTHER VOLUNTEER FOR ONE MORE THURS. NIGHT AT LEAST, AS THE MEETINGS HAVE SUCH A REFRESHING EFFECT ON ME AND JAH. SURE KNOWS I NEED THAT!!!  WELL, NOT MUCH ELSE TO SAY EXCEPT THAT I THINK THAT MIKE HAS BEEN DOING BETTER MENTALLY WITH THE ARICEPT, AND THE NAMENDA TWICE A DAY.  WE PLAYED RUMMIKUB BOTH YESTERDAY AND THE DAY BEFORE, AND HE WON!!!  HOPE YOUR DAY IS BLESSED WITH LOVE-JUST ME