I THINK I AM GOING BACKWARDS!!

FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON, YESTERDAY WAS ONE OF MY WORST DAYS-AS FAR AS MIKE GOES. I COULD NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM, AND EVERY TIME I LOOKED AT HIS PICTURE I STARTED TO CRY.  I EVEN LEFT MY SISTER VICKIE'S HOUSE RIGHT AFTER DINNER, AS I HAD BEEN WEEPY AT HER HOUSE TOO, AND I DID NOT WANT TO BRING HER DOWN TO A BAD PLACE.  I SURE HOPE TODAY WILL BE BETTER-NOT SURE HOW OR WHY IT SHOULD BE-IT IS MY COLONOSCOPY PREP DAY-YUCK!!!  I DON'T HAVE TO START TAKING STUFF UNTIL NOON, SO I AM STILL GOING TO THE "Y" TO EXERCISE WITH MY SISTER.  WHO KNOWS, MAYBE THAT WILL MAKE MY MOOD A LITTLE BETTER.  I DO KNOW THAT I HAVE NOT TAKEN ANY NERVE PILLS FOR WEEKS NOW-MAYBE YESTERDAY WAS MY REMINDER THAT THIS IS NOT OVER YET AND THAT STOPPING THE NERVE PILLS WHEN I DID WAS NOT TOO SMART.  WELL, I KNOW THIS IS SUPER SHORT, BUT I NEED TO GET DRESSED AS MY SISTER JUST CALLED AND SHE WILL BE HERE TO PICK ME UP IN JUST A FEW MINUTES.  I WILL TRY AND ADD ON TO THIS LATER IN BETWEEN BATH ROOM RUNS IF I CAN. IF NOT-I WILL BE BACK IN THE AM-SORE HINNY AND ALL.  HAVE A SUPERB DAY-I WILL TRY AND DO THE SAME.  JUST ME