TUES. MY NEXT DAY AT THE DENTIST

TODAY I HAVE ANOTHER TOOTH THAT THEY WILL MOST LIKELY PULL.  I AM MORE CONCERNED ABOUT THIS ONE THAN THE LAST, AS IT IS A TOOTH THAT SUPPORTS MY PARTIAL.  NOT SURE WHAT THE PLAN IS TO FIX THAT.  WHAT EVER HAS TO BE HAS TO BE, AS I ALREADY KNOW THEY CAN NOT SAVE THIS TOOTH.  MY SISTER VICKIE AND I WERE CURSED WITH BAD TEETH GENES.  YES, I WAS NOT TOTALLY INNOCENT-I LIKE MY HARD CANDIES, AND ALMOST ANY OTHER KIND OF SWEET, BUT WHEN YOU HAVE BAD GENES, YOU ARE PRETTY MUCH CURSED NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO.  IT ALL STARTED WITH RECEDING GUMS WHICH MY MOTHER HAD, MY DAD LOST ALL HIS TEETH IN THE MILITARY.  THEY THOUGHT IT WAS THE CAUSE OF HIS PROBLEM STOMACH, ONLY TO FIND OUT (AFTER THEY PULLED ALL HIS TEETH OUT) THAT IT WAS SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT CAUSING HIS PROBLEM.  HE WAS ONLY IN HIS EARLY 20'S AT THE TIME!!  I ONLY HAVE LESS THAN HALF MY ORIGINAL TEETH, AND I CAN NOT IMAGINE THE PAIN OF HAVING THEM ALL PULLED OUT AT THE SAME TIME.   THEY DON'T MAKE EM LIKE MY DAD ANY MORE!!  ANY HOW, I SLEPT PRETTY WELL AGAIN LAST NIGHT-HAD A LITTLE BREAK DOWN BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP.  JUST LOOKING AT MIKE'S PICTURE, AND KNOWING HE WAS HERE BESIDE ME SUCH A SHORT TIME AGO IS STILL SO FRESH AND HARD.  I KNOW MIKE WOULD NOT WANT ME TO KEEP MOURNING HIM, AND I TRY SO HARD TO KEEP FOCUSED ON THE FUTURE, BUT IT STILL HITS HOME HARD AT TIMES.  I DO MISS HIM SO.   TOMORROW I WILL HAVE TO START MY PREP FOR THE COLONOSCOPY ON THURS., AND SO MY SISTER WILL BRING HER GRAND DAUGHTER MADISON OVER TO PLAY SOME GAMES WITH US.  THAT WAY I CAN STAY CLOSE TO THE REST ROOM.  I WONDER WHY THEY DECIDED TO CALL IT THAT.  THERE IS NO BED IN THERE, AND PEOPLE ARE NOT RESTING WHEN THEY ARE IN THERE.  ANY HOW, I AM TRYING TO KEEP FOCUSED ON TWO THINGS RIGHT NOW.  MY SPIRITUALITY, AND MY UP COMING TRIP TO CA.. BOTH MAKE ME HAPPY, AND I REALLY DO TRY AND THINK POSITIVELY AS MUCH AS I CAN.  LIFE CAN SURE DEAL US SOME SHARP CURVES AT TIMES, PAINFUL ONES WHEN WE LEAST EXPECT IT.  THE BEST THING I THINK I CAN DO IS STAY BUSY AS I CAN DOING MORE VOLUNTEER WORK, AND THAT WAY TIME WILL PASS MORE QUICKLY.  TIME I AM TOLD IS THE BEST HEALER.  I EVEN THINK I WILL ENLIST PRESLEY TO GO WITH ME TO SOME OF THE HOSPICE HOMES AS A COMFORT DOG.  HE IS VERY LOVING AND GENTLE, AND I THINK THE KIDS WILL LOVE SEEING AND PETTING HIM.  I WILL START WORKING ON THAT NEXT WEEK.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME