GRIM TASK

YESTERDAY I SPENT A GOOD COUPLE HOURS WHILE MIKE WAS SLEEPING TO RESEARCH ALL THE THINGS INVOLVED WITH THE PASSING OF A LOVE ONE.  HORRIBLE DAY!!  MIKE AND I BOTH HAVE AGREED TO BE CREMATED, BUT THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAT NEEDS TO BE DECIDED UPON AND DONE IN ADVANCE.   I DO NOT WANT MYSELF OR ANY OF MY CHILDREN HAVING TO MAKE THESE DIFFICULT DECISIONS AT ONE OF THE WORST TIMES IN OUR LIFE.  I HAD TO STOP AND LEAVE THE REST FOR THE DAYS AHEAD, AS IT WAS NOT PUTTING ME IN A HAPPY PLACE, AND THAT IS WHERE I NEED TO BE AT ALL TIMES AROUND MIKE.  THIS MORNING THERE WAS QUITE A BIT OF BLOOD ON MIKES PILLOW, SHEET, CLOTHES, AND EVEN THE MATTRESS PROTECTOR.  HE DID NOT SEEM TO KNOW WHERE IT CAME FROM, AND I SEARCHED HIS UPPER BODY, AND COULD NOT SEE ANY PLACE THAT THE BLOOD COULD HAVE COME FROM.  HE SAYS HE IS FEELING OK, SO I WILL JUST HAVE TO KEEP A CLOSER EYE ON HIM THEN USUAL.   I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH HIS PCP TODAY-NOT SURE WHAT HE WANTS TO SEE ME FOR.  I'M SURE IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH MIKE'S CONDITION, BUT EXACTLY WHAT-I DON'T KNOW.  WE ONLY HAVE NINE MORE DAYS TILL OUR WONDERFUL SON, HIS BEAUTIFUL WIFE LAURA, AND THE TWO MOST GORGEOUS GRAND BABIES ON THE PLANET COME FOR A VISIT.  I KNOW IT WILL MEAN THE WORLD TO MIKE AND THE REST OF THE FAMILY AS WELL.  I NEED TO GET DRESSED NOW, AS OUR NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR IS IN THE HOSPITAL, AND MIKE WANTS TO GO SEE HER.  I STAY EXHAUSTED ALL THE TIME, BUT SOMEHOW, GOD GIVES ME THE ENERGY I NEED FOR EACH DAY.  TRY AND MAKE YOUR LOVED ONE SMILE TODAY-I KNOW I WILL-JUST ME