MIKE IS MAKING LESS AND LESS SENSE WHEN HE SPEAKS NOW.

BEFORE, IF YOU DID NOT KNOW MIKE, YOU MIGHT THINK HE WAS O.K. AS HE COULD AT LEAST SAY THINGS LIKE "HELLO, NICE TO MEET YOU, I'M FINE", AND OTHER SUCH PHRASES. NOW IT IS MUCH MORE APPARENT THAT NOT ONLY IS HIS BODY BEING RAVISHED BY THE BONE CANCER, BUT HIS BRAIN IS FUNCTIONING LESS AND LESS.  HE CAN NO LONGER READ, WHICH WAS SOMETHING HE USE TO REALLY ENJOY, NOR CAN HE WATCH SPORTS ON T.V., AS THEY ARE JUST TOO CONFUSING FOR HIM, AND HE NO LONGER SEEMS TO ENJOY THEM.  TODAY HIS HOSPICE NURSE WILL COME OVER, AND THEY WILL CHANGE SOME OF HIS PAIN MEDS.. HE IS STILL IN TOO MUCH PAIN EVEN WITH THE PAIN PATCH, NAPROXEN, AND THE MORPHINE.  HE CAN NO LONGER GET OUT OF BED WITH OUT MY HELP.  I KNOW THIS IS HARD FOR SOME OF YOU TO READ, AND EVEN HARDER FOR ME TO WRITE IT.  MIKE WAS ONCE SO STRONG AND ACTIVE-IT IS REALLY SAD TO SEE HIM IN BED SO MUCH OF THE TIME NOW, AND IN PAIN.  HOSPICE BROUGHT OVER A SHOWER CHAIR YESTERDAY, SO THAT WILL MAKE IT EASIER FOR HIM TO GET A SHOWER NOW.  HE USE TO LOVE BATHS, BUT EVEN WITH THAT BATH TUB LIFT THAT I GOT FOR HIM-HE NO LONGER CAN USE IT.  HE IS RESTING RIGHT NOW AND LOOKS TO BE ASLEEP. MIKE CALLED OUT FOR ME VERY EARLY THIS AM-NOT SURE WHAT TIME IT WAS AS I WAS SLEEPING.  HE WAS PATTING THE BED LOOKING TO FEEL IF I WAS THERE.  AS SOON AS I ANSWERED HIM-HE WAS FINE, AND WENT BACK TO SLEEP.  OUR FRIENDS FROM N.C. CALLED YESTERDAY, I WAS ON THE HOME PHONE SPEAKING WITH HOSPICE WHEN THEY CALLED, SO THEY TRIED MY CELL, AND SPOKE WITH FONDA AND THEN MIKE FOR A FEW MINUTES.  I KNOW THEY COULD TELL BY THE CONVERSATION, THAT MIKE IS NO LONGER HIMSELF.  WE USE TO PLAY BACKGAMMON EVERY SINGLE DAY, BUT HE NO LONGER CAN UNDERSTAND HOW IT'S PLAYED.  ALZHEIMER'S IS ONE OF THE WORST PLAGUES I THINK MANKIND HAS EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH-THAT AND CANCER.  WELL, I NEED TO DO MY BIBLE STUDYING SO I CAN PULL MYSELF UP TO A BETTER MORE CHEERFUL MOOD BEFORE MIKE WAKES UP.  IT IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME THAT HE ALWAYS SEES ME IN A HAPPY UPBEAT MOOD.  WAIT-----MIKE JUST MADE A LOUD NOISE, SO I RAN TO THE BED ROOM AND ASKED HIM IF SOMETHING WAS THE MATTER.  HE SAID SOMETHING ABOUT THE DOGS PUTTING A LADY IN A BOX AND SENDING HER OVER HERE.  IF WHAT MIKE SAYS WERE NOT SO SAD IT WOULD BE REALLY FUNNY.  ANY HOW, THAT IS IT FOR ME ON THIS WEDS. A.M..  I WILL BE COUNTING ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AS BLESSINGS FROM ABOVE-I LOVE & APPRECIATE YOU ALL.  JUST ME