APT. WITH MY PAIN DR. THIS AM.-JUST IN TIME

EVERY MORNING I WAKE UP WITH MY BACK AND NECK HURTING REALLY BAD.  I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO FIGURE OUT THE LOW BACK PAIN BUT HAVE ATTRIBUTED THE HEAD ACHES TO STRESS.  THIS AM HOWEVER I GOT AN EPIPHANY!!  IT IS PROBABLY THE FACT THAT I AM USE TO SLEEPING ON MY TEMPERPEDIC MATTRESS, WHICH I HAVE NOT DONE SINCE MIKE PASSED.  CONCLUSION? I MAY HAVE TO MOVE BACK INTO OUR OLD BED ROOM SOONER THAN I HAD PLANNED.  I WILL HAVE TO GIVE IT SOME MORE THOUGHT, BUT THAT FOR NOW AT LEAST, SEEMS A PLAUSIBLE SOLUTION.  I HAD A VISIT FROM A NEIGHBOR AND FRIEND YESTERDAY, WHICH CAUSED ME TO TALK ABOUT DEAR MIKE. I WAS FIGHTING TEARS ALL DAY BUT THEY WON THE BATTLE LAST NIGHT.  MY FRIEND DID NOT KNOW MIKE HAD PASSED BECAUSE SHE WAS BACK IN HAITI WITH HER HUSBAND FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS.  SHE WAS SOOO UPSET-IT GOT ME GOING.  WE HUGGED EACH OTHER, AND I AGREED I WOULD GO FOR A WALK WITH HER AS SOON AS I WAS ABLE.  SHE IS AWARE OF WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS CONCERNING THE TRUE CONDITION OF OUR DEAD, LOVED ONES , (I GAVE HER A COPY OF "WHAT THE BIBLE "REALLY" TEACHES") A WHILE BACK.   SHE AND I HAVE HAD MANY DISCUSSIONS ON THAT AND OTHER SUBJECTS.  SHE WAS VERY KIND AND EXPRESSED THAT MIKE IS NO LONGER IN ANY PAIN, AND WHEN HE WAKES UP-HE WILL HAVE NO MEMORY OF IT.  SURE WISH IT WERE TODAY, BUT THAT DAY IS NOT UP TO ANY ONE BUT OUR LOVING CREATOR-NO ONE ELSE, NOT EVEN HIS OWN DEAR SON KNEW  WHEN IT IS.  FOR NOW OUR FAITH AND MANY PRAYERS WILL GET US PAST THIS TIME OF GRIEF.  I KNOW IN MY HEART MIKE WOULD NOT WANT ME TO GET SICK OVER HIS PASSING-HE ALWAYS WANTED WHAT WAS BEST FOR ME.  AS HIS VERY BEST FRIEND TERRY S. TOLD ME ON THE PHONE THE OTHER DAY "BOOK CHICKS HAVE TO BE TOUGH!! MIKE SOLD ENCYCLOPEDIAS (BOOKS) FOR YEARS AS DID TERRY S.. WELL, I NEED TO GET READY FOR MY DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT.  I WILL BE SO GLAD WHEN THE DAY ARRIVES WHEN WE WILL NO LONGER NEED THEM, BUT FOR NOW IT'S KINDA HARD TO GET THROUGH LIFE WITH OUT THEM.  HAVE A HAPPY DAY-GIVE SOME ONE YOU LOVE A FLOWER FOR NO REASON AT ALL TODAY.  JUST ME