HAD A HARD DAYS NIGHT!!

I SEEM TO  BE THINKING OF MANY SONG TITLES THESE DAYS FOR MY HEAD LINES.  FOR SOME REASON SO MANY SEEM TO BE APPROPRIATE LATELY.  LAST NIGHT I REACHED OUT MY HAND THE WAY I WOULD DO EVERY NIGHT AND MIKE WOULD GRAB IT AND KISS IT.  I JUST BROKE DOWN AND CRIED WHEN I THOUGHT OF HOW I WILL MISS THAT ALONG WITH SO MANY OTHER THINGS MIKE USE TO SAY AND DO.  I KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAS EVER LOST A LIFE MATE, BUT THAT SURE DOES NOT MAKE SLEEPING ALONE (THE DOGS DON'T COUNT) ANY EASIER.  TODAY I HAVE A CHIROPRACTOR'S APPOINTMENT.  NOT SURE HOW THE REST OF THE DAY WILL PLAY OUT.  I AM TRYING HARD TO GET BACK INTO A ROUTINE, BUT IT IS NOT AS EASY AS YOU MIGHT THINK.  YESTERDAY MIKE B. PICKED ME UP AND TOOK ME TO FELINA'S WHERE WE ALL HAD DINNER, AND THEN HAD OUR FAMILY STUDY NIGHT.  WE ARE READING "THE GREATEST MAN WHO EVER LIVED" BOOK WHICH JUST HAPPENS TO BE MY ALL TIME FAVORITE BOOK-EVER!!  WE HAD A NICE MEAL FIRST, THEN TOOK TURNS READING.  CANYON HAD A HARD PAGE, BUT HE DID A MAGNIFCENT JOB-I AM SO PROUD OF THAT BOY!!!  THEN WE PLAYED A COUPLE GAMES OF APPLES TO ?? NOT SURE OF THE NAME. I SURE HATE FOR MIKE TO TAKE THAT LONG TRIP HOME BY HIMSELF, BUT IN A WAY IT MAY BE CATHARTIC.  HE WILL HAVE LOTS OF TIME TO GRIEVE, AND DEAL WITH HIS MEMORIES OF DAD ON HIS LONG  TRIP HOME.  I STILL SEEM TO HAVE PEOPLE AROUND ME MOST OF THE TIME. I LOVE MY FAMILY AND ALL MY FRIENDS, BUT THE WOUND IS STILL SO FRESH, IT IS HARD FOR ME TO KNOW WHEN I WILL BURST OUT INTO TEARS, AND I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS.  I LIKE TO GRIEVE IN PRIVATE, AND I DO PLENTY OF THAT TOO FIRST THING IN THE A.M.,AND LAST THING AT NIGHT. WELL, TIME FOR MY YUMMY CAFE' CON LECHE' TO WAKE ME UP AND GET ME GOING.  MIKE JR. JUST CALLED-HE IS IN ALABAMA RIGHT NOW.  HE IS SUCH A WONDERFUL SON-I WILL MISS HIM AND HIS BEAUTIFUL GIRLS-ALL THREE OF THEM (DON'T FORGET TO COUNT HIS WIFE LAURA!!).  TILL TOMORROW-ONE STEP IN FRONT OF THE OTHER!!!  JUST ME