SCARRY SCARRY NIGHT!!

MIKE DID NOT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING I WAS SAYING YESTERDAY, NOR COULD I UNDERSTAND HIM.  IT WAS A VERY HARD DAY-I'M SURE FOR THE BOTH OF US.  I ALMOST HAD TO CALL HOSPICE LAST NIGHT AROUND 12:30 MIDNIGHT.  HE HAD BEEN IN THE BATH ROOM FOR OVER 2 HOURS!!  I KEPT TRYING TO GET HIM OUT AND GET HIM IN BED, BUT HE SAID HE HAD TO GO POOP, SO HE WOULD NOT GET OFF THE POT.  I CHECKED ON HIM SO MANY TIMES THAT HE APPARENTLY GOT UPSET WITH ME AND LOCKED THE BATH ROOM DOOR!!! WHEN I DID GET IN, HE WAS SHAKING LIKE A LEAF ALL OVER, ALMOST LIKE SOMEONE IN SHOCK WILL DO. I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS COLD BUT HE SAID NO.  I WAS TRULY AFRAID TO LEAVE HIM IN THERE ANY LONGER, BUT HE INSISTED.  BY THE TIME I GOT HIM INTO BED I FELT LIKE A WET NOODLE!!  HE DID TAKE HIS MEDS., AND WENT TO SLEEP PRETTY FAST-I KNOW I DID.  I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL LIKE MY MIKE-THE ONE I LOVE AND HAVE BEEN  MARRIED TO FOR SO LONG, HAS LEFT THE BUILDING (SO TO SPEAK).  HE STILL KNOWS ME AND THE KIDS, BUT I CAN NO LONGER COMMUNICATE WITH HIM.  I CAN BE TALKING TO HIM, AND HE WILL JUST BE STARING OFF INTO SPACE.  HE ONLY ATE ONE MEAL YESTERDAY, AND HAD AN ICE CREAM BEFORE GOING TO BED.  HIS HOSPICE NURSE COMES TOMORROW, AND WE WILL SEE WHAT SHE HAS TO SAY.  WHEN HE IS UP, HE WILL JUST SIT AT THE DINNING ROOM TABLE SOMETIMES FOR HOURS.  HE WILL NOT EVEN BUDGE FOR HIS FAVORITE SHOWS, LIKE "WHEEL OF FORTUNE", OR THE MAGIC GAMES.  MY DEAR NEIGHBOR MARTHA (AND HER SON) BROUGHT OVER SOME DINNER FOR US YESTERDAY AND A RAMP FOR MIKE'S WHEEL CHAIR.  WE HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL NEIGHBORHOOD-I IMAGINE IT WILL BE MUCH LIKE THIS (ONLY BETTER) IN THE NEW SYSTEM WHEN ALL OUR NEIGHBORS EXPRESS LOVING KINDNESS TOWARDS ONE ANOTHER.  MIKE IS STILL RESTING-I AM GLAD FOR THAT.  AT LEAST I KNOW HE IS NOT IN ANY PAIN RIGHT NOW.  I KNOW I HAVE SAID IT BEFORE, BUT IT BEARS REPEATING-CHERISH EVERY MOMENT-LIFE IS FLEETING-JUST ME