LOTS OF THINGS ARE CHANGING AROUND HERE!!

MY LIVING ROOM IS NOW A DIFFERENT COLOR (S), AND SOON MY BED ROOM WILL BE TOO. I STILL HAVE SO MUCH TROUBLE GOING INTO MY BED ROOM SEEING MIKE'S PICTURE AND HIS URN.  I AM GRATEFUL TO HAVE MY GRAND BABIES, LAURA, & MIKE JR. HERE STILL-THEY HAVE BEEN AN ENORMOUS HELP IN KEEPING ME SANE (OR CLOSE TO IT).  EVERYONE IS CHIPPING IN TO HELP-DAWN  (MY SISTER VICKIE'S DAUGHTER) & RICH (HER HUSBAND) SPENT THE WHOLE DAY HERE HELPING OUT.  I HAVE AN AWESOME FAMILY. AS MOST OF YOU WHO KNEW, MY HUSBAND, HE  WAS A HUGE PACK RAT, AND THAT HAS PROBABLY BEEN THE MOST DIFFICULT CHORE OF ALL.  HE HAS PAPER WORK DATING BACK TO THE 70'S, AND YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT ALL OF THEM, AS YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT NEEDS TO BE SHREDDED.  WE STILL HAVE HIS CLOSET AND DRAWERS TO GO THROUGH, BUT I'M NOT SURE I AM READY FOR THAT JUST YET.  MIKE JR. WILL BE HERE FOR ANOTHER WEEK, BUT LAURA AND THE GIRLS WILL BE LEAVING ON WEDS..  I SURE WILL MISS THEM !!  WE HAVE GOTTEN SO MANY LOVELY CARDS WITH SWEET MESSAGES-I PLAN TO MAKE AN ALBUM OUT OF THEM. MY BLOOD PRESSURE HAS BEEN DOING CRAZY STUFF LATELY-IT GOT AS HIGH AS 222 OVER 109 SAT. NIGHT..  I AM GOING TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY P.C.P. TODAY, AND SEE IF THEY WANT TO RUN A FEW TEST TO SEE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME.  THE DOGIES HAVE ALSO BEEN GREAT, AND ARE NOW SLEEPING WITH ME.  THEY ARE LOVING THAT, AND I TOO AM GETTING SOME GOOD OUT OF IT AS WELL.  I AM TRYING TO KEEP MYSELF BUSY WITH DIFFERENT PROJECTS-LIKE RESTORING A COUPLE OF PICTURES WITH JADE FLOWERS ON THEM.  I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED ANY THING TO DO WITH THE LEFT SIDE OF THE BRAIN, SO NOW IS MY CHANCE TO PUT THAT TO GOOD USE.  EACH DAY IS STILL A STRUGGLE-NO WAY TO AVOID THAT I GUESS.  I TRY AND LIMIT MY BREAKDOWNS TO TWICE A DAY-FIRST THING IN THE AM WHEN I GO INTO OUR BED ROOM.  I KISS MIKE'S PICTURE, AND THE TEARS JUST FLOW.  ALSO JUST BEFORE BED TIME-SAME THING.  THE SHOWER IS A GREAT PLACE TO JUST LET LOOSE AS THE WATER HIDES THE SOUND OF THE TEARS.  I KNOW I WILL SLOWLY GET BETTER AND BE ABLE TO DO MORE, BUT FOR NOW, I AM JUST THANKFUL FOR HOW FAR I HAVE COME.  I WAS OUT IN SERVICE FOR AN HOUR ON SAT., AND HAD A LOVELY TIME.  IT IS A WORK I LOVE, AS THERE ARE SO MANY OUT THERE HUNGERING AND THIRSTING TO UNDERSTAND GOD'S WORD BETTER.  WELL, I AM SURE ALL MY KIDS WILL BE OVER SOON, AND I NEED TO GET DRESSED, AND FEED MY SWEET DOGIES.  HERE'S HOPING FOR A HAPPIER TOMORROW FOR ALL OF US-JUST ME