FIRST MORNING AFTER MIKE'S SERVICE.

FIRST I REALLY WANT TO THANK MY SON IN LAW MIKE B. FOR DELIVERING SUCH A LOVELY TALK UNDER SUCH DURESS.  HE AND MY MIKE WERE QUITE CLOSE, AND I KNOW THAT GIVING THAT TALK WAS NOT AN EASY TASK FOR HIM.  I WAS PLEASED TO HAVE SO MANY DEAR FRIENDS SHOW UP, BUT DEEPLY SADDENED THAT THERE WAS NO ANNOUNCEMENT MADE AT THE K. H. ABOUT THE TALK (ONLY A VIEWING).  I KNOW THAT MANY MORE OF OUR DEAR FRIENDS WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE COME, AND WOULD HAVE.  I HAD EVERY INTENTION OF STOPPING MY DAILY POSTS, AS I FELT IT WAS ALL ABOUT MIKE AND THE JOURNEY HE WAS ON AND HOW IT EFFECTED MYSELF AND OTHERS.  MY SON SUGGESTED YESTERDAY THAT I CONTINUE TO POST ABOUT THE HEALING PROCESS, AND HOW AND WHAT I AM FEELING AND DOING EACH DAY.  I WANTED TO SPEND MY FIRST NIGHT ALONE IN MY HOME-BUT NOT IN "OUR BED".  I LET THE DOGS UP IN BED WITH ME IN ONE OF OUR OTHER ROOMS.  MY CHILDREN WERE WORRIED THAT I WOULD NOT EAT OR TAKE MY MEDS., SO I INVITED MY SISTER VICKIE OVER AND WE SHARED A GLASS OF WINE, WHILE I ATE A LITTLE SALAD WITH CHICKEN IN IT, AND A CORN ON THE COB.  I TOOK ALL MY PILLS, AND THEN HAD HER CALL MY KIDS TO LET THEM KNOW I WAS FINE, AND SHE SAW ME TAKE MY PILLS AND EAT.  SHE THEN WENT HOME, AND I WENT TO GET MIKE'S PICTURE, HELD AND KISSED IT, AND OF COURSE SHED SOME TEARS.  ALL THREE OF MIKE'S GIRLS WERE WITH HIM WHEN HE PASSED, TELLING HIM HOW MUCH WE LOVE HIM.  IT WAS SO QUICK-AT LEAST THAT IS HOW I FELT.  LAURA, MIKE JR. AND OUR TWO BEAUTIFUL GRAND BABIES DROVE STRAIGHT THROUGH FROM C.A. TO BE HERE IN TIME TO SAY GOOD BY TO GRANDPA.  I THINK LILLY REALLY TOOK IT HARD, AND ASKED ME LATER IF SHE COULD HAVE A GRANDPA CARD (THE ONES WITH HIS PICTURE AND FAMILY INFORMATION).  I FELT BAD AND ALMOST SELFISH WANTING TO BE HOME ALONE AFTER THE SERVICE, BUT MY HEART NEEDED THAT.  TODAY I WILL SPEND TIME WITH MY GRAND BABIES, AND FAMILY.  I PRAY FOR CONTINUED PRAYERS, AS THEY HAVE DONE WONDERS FOR ME THUS FAR!!!!  THANK YOU, AND MUCH LOVE, JUST ME