I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK-WENT TO MY MEETING YESTERDAY

IT WAS LIKE SURROUND SOUND WITH PEOPLE!!  SO MANY SHARING A HUG AND A NOD-NO WORDS WERE NECESSARY.  ALL OF US HAVE AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER LOST A DEAR LOVED ONE IN DEATH.  YET WE ARE ALL COMFORTED BY THE SAME BIBLE PROMISES THAT WE WILL SEE OUR LOVED ONES AGAIN.  IT IS OF GREAT COMFORT TO ME TO KNOW MIKE IS NOT SUFFERING, NOR IS HE  MISSING US.  AS THE BIBLE SAYS, HE IS IN A DEEP LIKE SLEEP-JUST WAITING TO BE AWAKENED  TO A NEW A BETTER WORLD THAN WHAT HE LEFT BEHIND.  THE GRAND KIDS HAVE BEEN SUCH A WONDERFUL DISTRACTION FOR THE NORMAL PAINS WE ALL FEEL WHEN WE ARE FORCED TO TAKE THIS JOURNEY AND ARE SEPARATED FROM THE ONES WE LOVE.  ONLY WHEN I AM TOTALLY ALONE DO I ALLOW MYSELF TO HAVE A MUCH NEEDED  BREAKDOWN, BUT THEN MY DOGIES ARE GREAT AT LICKING UP TEARS!!  THEY SLEEP WITH ME EVERY NIGHT, AND I PRETEND THAT THE WARMTH I AM FEELING IS MIKE'S LEGS.  HIS LEGS ALWAYS KEPT ME WARM IN THE COLDEST OF WINTERS.   HE WILL ALWAYS BE MISSED BY ME FOR SO MANY MANY OTHER REASONS, AS WILL HE TO  ALL WHO KNEW HIM.  I HOPE TO REPLACE OUR BED ROOM SET TODAY WITH ANOTHER USED ONE, AS I CAN STILL NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE IN OUR ROOM-IT HAS TOO MANY MEMORIES OF THE MANY MONTHS MIKE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN.  TODAY WILL BE SAD, AS FONDA AND MIKE JR. WILL BE PICKING UP MIKE'S REMAINS.  I WILL KEEP THEM IN OUR ROOM SO HE CAN ALWAYS BE CLOSE BY ME (AND THE DOGIES).  EACH DAY HAS NOT YET GOTTEN EASIER OR LESS PAINFUL, I HAVE JUST HAD TO FIND WAYS TO HIDE OR CONTROL MY TEARS WHEN OTHERS ARE AROUND.  I HAVE NEVER BEEN ONE TO SHOW HOW UPSET I AM IN FRONT OF OTHERS-DON'T KNOW WHY OR HOW THAT CAME ABOUT.  WELL, VICKIE WILL BE HERE ANY MINUTE, SO TILL TOMORROW-I AM ONE DAY CLOSER TO SEEING NOT JUST MIKE, BUT ALL THOSE I HAVE LOVED AND LOST OVER THE PAST SEVERAL YEARS.  MANY HUGS FOR YOUR LOVE AND ENCOURAGEMENT-JUST ME