DREAMS KEPT WAKING ME UP LAST NIGHT!

I HAVE BEEN VERY TIRED AS OF LATE.  I HAVE EVEN BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP DURING THE DAY-WHICH THOSE WHO KNOW ME KNOW I COULD NEVER DO THAT BEFORE.  I WENT TO BED PRETTY EARLY LAST NIGHT-AROUND 9:30 P.M. AFTER I LET THE DOGS OUT.  I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT ALL THE DREAMS WERE ABOUT (AT LEAST 3), BUT I WOKE UP IN TEARS, AND I KNOW THEY WERE ABOUT MIKE.  THAT IS ALL I AM SURE OF.  ANY HOW I WAS ABLE TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AFTER A LITTLE WHILE, AND JUST WOKE UP AT 7-BY MY DOGIES.  HEY, WHEN THEY WANT THEIR FOOD-THEY WANT THEIR FOOD!!  YESTERDAY WAS GOOD FOR THE MOST PART.  I THINK THE CHIROPRACTOR DID HELP SOME WITH MY NECK PAIN, BUT I WILL SEE MY PAIN DR. ON THURS., AND SEE WHAT HE CAN DO FOR ME.  I AM TIRED OF ALWAYS HAVING TO TAKE SO MANY PILLS TOO-MAYBE HE CAN DELETE SOME FOR ME SAFELY.THIS AM I PLAN TO GO TO L.A. FITNESS AND SEE IF MY BALLY'S CARD WILL WORK THERE.  IF SO, I WILL START MY WORK OUT TODAY.  VERY VERY LOW IMPACT BECAUSE OF THE BACK ISSUES. BUT I REALLY NEED TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT MORE FOR MY HEALTH THAN ANY THING ELSE AT THIS POINT.  MY DAUGHTER FONDA TOOK ME OUT TO EAT SOME HALF PRICED APPETIZERS AT BONE FISH AND THEN DID THE SAME THING AT RUTH CHRIS, AND THEN AS WE WERE LEAVING- WE BOTH HAD A MOMENT.  I KNOW IT IS PROBABLY HARDEST ON US BECAUSE WE SAW MIKE DAY AFTER DAY, AND AS THE YOUNGEST, I THINK SHE HAS TAKEN IT THE HARDEST, ALTHOUGH MIKE JR. HAS REALLY TAKEN IT HARD AS HAVE CANYON, JAKKIE, FELINA, MIKE B. MY SISTER VICKIE, TERRY S. , AND SO MANY OTHERS.  I WONDER IF HE EVER KNEW HOW VERY MUCH HE WAS LOVED AND WOULD BE MISSED.  THEN, DO ANY OF US??  TODAY IS MY STUDY DAY FOR OUT THURS. NIGHT MEETING.  IT IS A WONDERFUL DISTRACTION, AND LIFTS ME UP RIGHT AT THE RIGHT TIME.  I KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON GOING THROUGH A LOSS, BUT TALKING ABOUT IT OR WRITING ABOUT IT REALLY DOES HELP.  I WOULD ENCOURAGE ANYONE GOING THROUGH THE LOSS OF ANY KIND TO PUT YOUR FEELINGS DOWN IN A DAILY JOURNAL OR BLOG.  IT HAS BEEN VERY CATHARTIC FOR ME, AND I AM SURE IT WOULD WORK FOR YOU AS WELL.  HAVE A LOT OF LOVE IN YOUR HEART TODAY, AND SHOW IT TO ALL THOSE YOU CARE ABOUT.  TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME