Monday, April 30, 2012
SUN, SAND, BEACH, AND TEARS!
THE WEATHER WAS BEAUTIFUL, AND THE WATER WAS GORGEOUS, BUT ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS MIKE. HE WANTED TO GO TO THE BEACH SO BAD, BUT I COULD NOT THINK OF A WAY TO GET HIM THERE SAFELY. HE COULD NOT WALK IN THE SAND, AND THE WHEEL CHAIR CAN NOT BE ROLLED IN THE SAND. I TRIED NOT TO CRY, BUT T HE TEARS JUST FLOWED. IT'S HARD TO UNDERSTAND HOW SOMEONE CAN BE HAPPY (I AM A GREAT GRAND MOTHER NOW), AND SO SAD AT THE SAME TIME. WE ARE TRULY COMPLICATEDLY MADE!! THE REST OF SAT. WAS OK. I WENT TO MY SISTER'S HOUSE, HAD DINNER THERE, AND WATCHED PART OF A MOVIE (THE CHIP MONKS NEW MOVIE ON A SHIP). CAME HOME, AND WENT TO BED. YESTERDAY WAS ANOTHER BAD HARD DAY. I WAS UP SINCE 1:30AM, (SEVERE LEG CRAMPS) AND DECIDED I WOULD LISTEN AN EARLY AM MEETING, AS I WAS TOO TIRED TO DRIVE TO MY OWN. ALSO I WAS STILL NOT FEELING ALL THAT WELL. FONDA CAME OVER, AND WE BOTH HAD SUCH A GOOD CRY, THAT I COULD NOT BREATHE!! SHE HAD TO RUN OUT TO HER CAR AND GET AN ASTHMA PUMP SO THAT I COULD . WE HAD TO USE IT TWICE I THINK, AND I HAD TO TAKE SOME NERVE PILLS AS WELL. I DON'T EVEN HAVE ASTHMA!! HERE I THOUGHT I WAS DOING SO WELL, AND THEN THE WHOLE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN ON ME!! I THINK IT STARTED WHEN I WOKE UP IN SUCH BAD LEG PAIN SAT. AM.. MIKE WOULD ALWAYS HELP ME BY GETTING MY QUININE WATER, PILLS, AND HEATING UP MY BED BUDDY. I HAD TO CRAWL TO THE KITCHEN PRAYING ALL THE WAY TO REACH MY PILLS, AND THEN HEAT UP MY BED BUDDY MYSELF. I KNOW MIKE DID NOT CHOOSE TO LEAVE, BUT I COULD NOT HELP THINKING WHERE WAS HE WHEN I NEEDED HIM. THEN THE TEARS STARTED AND TRULY HAVE NOT STOPPED COMPLETELY SINCE THEN. I HAVE HAD A FEW GOOD MOMENTS IN BETWEEN, AND I AM SURE I WILL AGAIN, BUT FOR NOW IT IS SO HARD TO THINK OF THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH OUT HIM. SORRY FOR THE DOWNER THIS AM. I USUALLY TRY AND LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE, AND I'M SURE I WILL GET THERE AGAIN. I WILL BE STARTING TO GO TO THE "Y" THIS WEEK, AND THAT SHOULD HELP (ALL THOSE ENDORPHINS WE ALWAYS HEAR SO MUCH ABOUT). OH, DOES ANY BODY KNOW OF A CHIHUAHUA RESCUE?? MY NEIGHBOR HAS DECIDED ONCE AGAIN THAT SHE NEEDS TO GET RID OF THE ONE I FOUND FOR HER. I CHIHUAHUA !!!! LIKE MIKE ALWAYS USE TO SAY "NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHED"!! WELL, THAT IS IT FOR ME THIS AM-I NEED TO GET DRESSED NOW, SO TILL TOMORROW-JUST ME
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